fafa supeheroine

2011-06-12T20:52:00.002+08:00

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go?

I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you, thinking of you

Thinking of you, what you would do

If you were the one who was spending the night

Spending the night, spending the night

Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter

Like a hard candy with a surprise center

How do I get better once I've had the best?

You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you, thinking of you

Thinking of you, what you would do

If you were the one who was spending the night

(pending the night, spending the night

Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes, I do regret

How I could let myself let you go

Now, now the lesson's learned

I touched it, I was burned

Oh, I think you should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

Thinking of you, thinking of you

Thinking of you, what you would do

If you were the one who was spending the night

Spending the night, spending the night

Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes

Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't you walk through?

And bust in the door and take me away?

Oh, no more mistakes

'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay

2011-04-16T19:10:00.003+08:00

I know I can't take one more step towards you

Cause all that's waiting is regret

And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love

I loved the most

I learned to live, half a life

And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are

Runnin' round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live, half a life

And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are

Runnin round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are

It took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are

Runnin' round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?

Runnin round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are? Not all smiling faces are happy cause not all of them like to show what their real feelings are like. But that doesn't mean that we're weak, that just shows that we wanna move froward and never wanna look back. So please don't come back.

2011-04-06T20:21:00.003+08:00

Thinking back when we got together

In our hearts we were saying forever

So in love, boy we were so in love, mmm

Jealousy wasn't what we wanted, we broke up

And when you looked into my eyes I should of spoke up

And held you near, then I wouldn't be alone

And here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said

It all just keeps spinning around in my head

But it don't matter what I try to do

I keep on forgetting to forget about you

And I don't want to think about you baby so much

All the things we did and the way that we touched

Just when I think about someone new

I keep on forgetting to forget about you

Forget about you, forget about

Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you

Forget about me and you

I would be crazy to say that we were perfect

And sometimes I was wondering if it was worth it

But now I see, how could you run from me?

And everytime I drive by your apartment

I get this overwhelming urge to walk in

And see your face and to be in that place all over again

The way we laughed, the way we kissed

I never though that I would miss

All the things I used to complain about you

The football games, the hometown friends

I'm just glad to see an end

But tell me why I feel so alone without you?

- Tell me why i keep on forgetting to forget you? I wanna fall in love again and feel the happiness but is it just so hard? If i hang on to old memories, how will i create a new one? I need to learn to let go. I'm gonna be much happier. I wish i could let go as easy as it's said.

2011-04-06T16:33:00.002+08:00

On the first page of our story

the future seemed so bright

then this thing turned out so evil

I don't know why I'm still surprised

even angels have their wicked schemes

and you take that to new extremes

but you'll always be my hero

even though you've lost your mind

Now there's gravel in our voices

glass is shattered from the fight

in this tug of war, you'll always win

even when I'm right

'cause you feed me fables from your hand

with violent words and empty threats

and it's sick that all these battles

are what keeps me satisfied

So maybe I'm a masochist

I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave

till the walls are goin' up

in smoke with all our memories

- Love the way you lie, part II

2011-04-04T21:08:00.003+08:00

Dear best friend,

I'm sorry that i've doubted you. I know i shouldn't have felt this way but .... Hmmm, i'm truly sorry. Instead of being with you in your hardship, i added on it. Maybe i think too much or perharps, i just miss you too much, too much that all i could do is just to see our good old times pictures D: I'm truly sorry that i felt this way. I was just too emotional and over reacting. I know you'll always keep your promises and never disappoint me in no ways. I've been with you for 4 years if i still don't know you why would we be so close right?

Ohh god, please help me with this dilemma i'm in. I know i should be grateful with what i have now but is it wrong for me to ask for a better one? I'm not asking for perfect but i just missed the old best friend of mine that's all. Actually the fact is she didn't change a bit but i doubted her. I just missed the way we used to be together and the way we always got each other's back. Maybe i've yet to accept the fact that we're no longer will be the way we used to. Perhaps, i just can't adapt to the new environment we're in. I'm sorry best friend. Give me time please, and i'll get over this real soon. I love you, Wawa Supergirl ♥

XOXOXO,

Fafa Superheroine

2011-04-04T14:56:00.003+08:00

I feel so crushed and sad.

I know, we know that this is gonna happen after we went our separate ways. We also know that we won't have time to meet and staff like that but everytime i look at yr FB, you always have a bunch of new photos with yr friends but none of them have me in it. I know i shouldn't be feeling this way but i can't help it but to just feel sad everytime that happens. Cause everytime i suggest a meet up, you always have tousand and one excuses. Yes, i know you need to study but isn't it funny that you can have tine for yr dance crews, babygirls and chalets and stuffs like but never have the time for me. I always pray that i would forget about this and just move on but why i just can't?!?!

I really can't find a reasonable reason why you just fvcking much time with the rest of yr friends? You need to tell me babe. I hate to be in this situation. At the rate we're going, we'll never be able to keep the promises we made. I missed you so much and you've been the best but i can't help thinking that this is gonna end anytime soon. I know i'll be the first person to know all yr problems and i always lend you my shoulders so that you can feel better but i'm starting to think i won't be able to do that anymore D: Hmmmm , i'm sorry for feeling this way but i think it's already time for me to take my leave. Thanks for the wonderful years in my life. I'm sorry, goodbye. I love you babe ♥♥

Fafa Superheroine

‎; I don't need you to come to my workplace to surprise me, i don't need you to meet me when you don't have the time and most of all i don't need you to tell me you missed me cause it doesn't matter. You're my best friend cause you cared for me and has always been there for me when i needed you. Wawa Supergirl, you're still my best friend even if we don't meet for years ♥♥♥

March 29 at 11:57pm · Unlike ·

Wawa Supergirl

‎; I've never forget about you even if i know you said to yrself that maybe i dont need you, yr presence. I told you its gonna be a different lead of living. As much as i miss you we're apart cause yr working and my stuck up attitude of time management. i'll meet you up real soon hold on to that promise of ours. *hugs* xoxo

March 30 at 12:09am · Like · 3 people

2011-03-28T20:10:00.004+08:00

HELLO EARTHLINGS!!!

I'M STARTING TO THINK THAT I ACTUALLY MISS MY BLOG :D HAHAHA!! GONNA BE TYPING CAPITAL LETTERS. WHY?! FOR FUN!!! GUESS WHAT?!?! SCHOOL'S GONNA START IN 13 DAYS TIME AND I'M SO NOT READY FOR IT. EVENTHOUGH I'M EXCITED BUT I'M SERIOUSLY NOT READY FOR IT. IT'S BEEN 6 MONTHS SINCE I LAST WOKE UP EARLY FOR SCHOOL! WORST COME TO WORST I'LL ONLY WAKE UP AT 9 OR 10 am FOR WORK!!! HAIYAAAA, THIS IS GONNA BE HARD FOR MANZZZ! I HAVE ONLY 13 DAYS TO TRAIN TO WAKE UP EARLY AND GUESS WHAT?! I DON'T I'M GONNA MAKE IT >.<

YAAAAYNEEESS D: BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, I'M EXCITED FOR SCHOOL. NEW FRIENDS, NEW ENVIRONMENT, NEW TEACHERS, NEW CANTEEN, EVERYTHING NEW. I SO NEED TO GET USED TO ALL THE NEW STUFFS AND I'M ALWAYS ATTACHED TO MY BESTFR, WAWA. SO PRAY HARD FOR ME THAT I WON'T BE LATE ON MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL YA? ^.^ HEEEEEH ;D

TALKING ABOUT WAWA, I MISS MY GIRLS SO MUCH AND MY CLASSMATES! HMMMM, WONDER HOW THEY'RE ALL DOING IN SCHOOL. I HAVE TO ADMIT I DO MISS NVSS AND BEING VISTARIAN. HAHAHAHA, DID I JUST TYPED THAT?! HEEEH >.< NO, SERIOUSLY, IF I WASN'T IN NVSS I WOULDN'T HAVE FALL IN LOVE WITH A GUY WHO NEVER FAILED ME*eventhough we've went our seperate ways for 2 years now*, I WOULDN'T HAVE FOUND SUCH A WONDERFUL BESTFRIEND, WAWA, I WOULDN'T KNOW THAT I WAS CAPABLE OF DOING SOMETHING DIFFERENT, I WOULDN'T KNOW THAT I WAS LUCKY TO HAVE AN AWESOME CLASSMATES(1N2,2N3,3N3,4N3) AND TEACHERS WHO HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME!, I WOULDN'T HAVE FOUND AN AWESOME LAUGHING PARTNER LIKE FIR & MUNIR, I WOULDN'T KNOW THAT EVENTHOUGH FIZZO IS IRRITATING HE IS STILL AN AWESOME FRIEND!!!!! I WOULDN'T HAVE DISCOVERED SO MANY THINGS IF I WASN'T IN NVSS OR A VISTARIAN! SO THANKS NORTH VISTA SECONDARY SCHOOL FOR OFFERING ME A WONDERFUL 4 YEARS IN LIFE TO SHARE AND EXPLORE!!!!

People never know how special someone is until they leave, but maybe sometimes its important to leave, so they are given that chance to see how special that someone really is. We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can fly only by embracing each other.

2011-03-23T15:35:00.002+08:00

"I Love You, Goodbye"

Wish I could be the one

The one who could give you love

The kind of love you really need

Wish I could say to you

That I'll always stay with you

But baby that's not me

You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you

Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can

Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you

I don't really wanna go

But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do

You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be

Who'll give you something better

Than the love you'll find with me

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a crime

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone

Is the hardest thing to do

When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you

Baby it tears me up inside

But I'll never be the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never gonna work out

I love you, goodbye

2011-03-18T14:51:00.004+08:00

Hello Earthlings!!

I know i know, it's been a long time since i last update my blog! Been busy but guess what?! I won't be that busy anymore cause wanna know why?! I've resigned!! Who wanna stay in a company that always pay their employee's salary late? Right ^^ So i've decided to leave! So Good Bye Spring Maternity & Baby! Eventhough i've worked there for half a year alr, i don't feel it there. I wanna leave and find a better job. So for all new springlets part timers, i wish you all the best and may yguys stay longer there!!! HAHAHAHA :D So i smell freedom and no moneyface coming out!! HAHHA! I'm so gonna find a new job real soon..

Okay okay, enough about work! Now, let's talk about school (: I went for the registration yterday and i must say my future classmates are all friendly and guess what?! Most of them are malays!! HAHHAHA. So hopefully nothing will go wrong on the first day! I'm starting school real soon manzz!! After so long of not waking up early for school, now i have to do it all over again!!! Aku nak jadi nurse! HAHHAHA (: Those who are real close to me would know why it's a funny thing to say about me! They'll be like " HUH?! Fafa? Nurse?!" Serious ah? Can handle meh?" All those shocking questions. Hahahhaah! Hopefully i'll be better person after this!!!

Haha, when dah jadi nurse fafa update again okay? Hahha :D Bye all :DD

2011-02-22T20:08:00.004+08:00

I guess if you're done breaking my heart , i should go .

As i stared in your eyes, you asked me why i was about to cry, cause i knew you're going to say goodbye . Why can't you see how much you hurt me this time ? You used to say you were sorry, now you don't . You don't even care anymore . I never hated you for not loving me, but i hate you, for making me fall even more when i'm trying to let you go . I'll never going to let you see through me . I'm never going to show you how broken i am inside . My friends tell me to let go or at least to try . But what do i do when i start to cry ? I'm holding you back yet i don't wanna let go . I'm fighting emotions that i've never fought before . When you say you didn't need me, i didn't expect you to be right . My head rest on my pillow and let tears flow and ask myself "Why can't i let go ?" I know i've said goodbye so many times before but all roads lead me back to you . But now, as i say this goodbye, i have this feeling that i will never see you again . Honestly, i don't wanna cross your path in the future, cause i don't want all these feelings to come back and hurt me once again . I know i can't let go of my feelings but i have to let you go . I'm sorry if i took this long to let you go . I still love you and probably i will love you for a very long time . But somehow i know i have to move on and get over you . And the only way for me to that is to be not around you anymore . Like what they say we can't forget the one we loved, we may want to but we can't . Love cannot be forgotten no matter how hard we try and how much we think it will ease the pain . I will always be there forever . Maybe fate will smile upon us and we'll see each other again, someday .

It's proven that i'll love you for a very long time . It's been 2 years already ever since we broke up and look at me now . I'm already not around but look me ! I'm still thinking of me and still missing you . I want you to go aways and in fact i don't even what to know you at all !!!! I understand that everything happens for a reason but why like this ? I'm sorry that i've disappoint you and i'm sorry that i've hurt so i guess this is what i get in return . You're a nice guy my friend , i'll pray that you'll always be happy with whoever you choose to be with . May one day we meet again , i'll always want to see you smiling and happy . I've realised that our love story wasn't even a whole to start with that's why we ended up broken . Thanks for everything cause every 6th has always been special to me . And of course it is still for you cause you get to celebrate it till now with someone else who you really love . Last long yguys . I bet yguys will .

Our love story wasn't even a whole to start with, that's why we ended up broken .

2011-02-03T15:27:00.004+08:00

; Take a look at what you have .

Think of all the things you did to get it .

Remember it only takes one second to lose .

Sometimes what you want isn't always what you get but in the end what you get is so much better than what you wanted . The most cruel thing a person can do is to forbid someone to say "I Love You " to the one she loves . Yet it's more cruel to force one to say " I Love You NOT" to the one she loves most . To love is to risk not being loved in return . To hope is to risk to be disappointed . To try is to risk failure but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk for nothing . The bad things in live open your eyes to good things you weren't paying attention before .

It hurts to see your lost love walk pass you with another girl , it's even worse to know that you made a mistake in letting him go .

I was finally getting over you and believing that i didn't need you . I was finally accepting the fact that you had another girl . Then you smiled at me ruined it all . Don't ever give up if you still want . Don't ever wipe your tears if you still need to cry . Don't ever settle for an answer if you still wanna know . Don't ever you don't love him if you can't let him go .

How can i forget you when you're always on my mind ? How can i not want you when you're all i want inside ? How can i let you go when i can't see us apart ? How can i not love you when you control my heart ?

I thought by telling myself and everyone else that i hated you that sooner or later i would come to believe it . But now i realised that is make me want you even more . Letting go of someone dear to you is hard but holding on to someone who doesn't feel the same it's just much harder . Giving up doesn't mean you are weak ! It only means that you are strong enough to let go .

One day you'll love me the i loved you . One day you'll think of me the way i thought of you . One day you'll cry for me just like the i cried for you . One you'll want me but i won't want you . You hurt me more than i deserved , how can you be so cruel ? I love you more that you deserved , why am i such a fool ? Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know it . But it's worst when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of sudden you realised you can't live without them .

Days continue to pass , stars continue to shine , Why am i having tears in my eyes when he was never mine . Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain . Someday we'll know why the sky is blue . Someday we'll know why i wasn't meant for you . Suddenly i realised all the times i had with you was ..........

JUST A DREAM . A DREAM THAT I WOULD NEVER WANT IT TO END CAUSE I HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE IN THAT DREAM . IT MAYBE SHORT BUT I TREASURED IT SO MUCH . THANK YOU GOD FOR LETTING ME LIVED IN A DREAM FOR THAT MOMENT . AT THE END OF IT , IT WON'T CHANGE AS

IT WAS JUST A DREAM .

2011-02-01T17:51:00.007+08:00

Hello dearest blog !

It's been so long since i update my blog . Been busy with work and some other stuffs . Ouhhh , first of all , i'm so happy that i'm finally gg back to school ! My interview was successful !!! :DD Alhamdulillah . Just gotta wait for my medical check up day which is next week . Hopefully everything will go just fine . Praying hard yknow ! Hehe (: So can't wait for April manzzz !! What'e even made me happier is , my bbyg , Amni Syazwani , will be also be starting school in April too ! Yaaaaay ! At the end of the day , we're the one who's gonna stick together ^^ I'm so happy for you girlfr ! :D Ouuhhh , and amni , do cheer up okay ? Insyallah , he'll sees and sense it soon okay ? ^^ Cheer up aye bbyg ?

Okay , things at home been really really crazy ! Why ? Just because my elder brother's gonna get engage next week . He's getting engage but me and my kakak has been doing all the work . But we're cool with it ^^ Cause like hello it's our abang big day after all beside he's been busy working all the time . Never had time for himself or the preparation . That's why me and my kakak are okay with it ((: Truthfully , i can't wait for the actual day cause my 2 dearest cousins will be coming over to have a sleep over ^^ Yaaaaay :D Been so long since we spend good times tgether . Actually not really ah . HAHAHHA ! We almost spend good times together everytime we meet which is on every weekend . Hahaha (: Praying that everything will go well on that day for my abang and Kak Shidah . Amin (:

Okay , CNY is coming real soon . Not saying that i'll be celebrating it but that means that i have to work even more =.= Orang bynk balik kampong loooh !!! Seriously , mood for work hasn't been in me lately . Been lazy and not willing to go to work . Like tomorrow . I don't wanna go to work but if i don't , trust me , both my dad and abang will nag me the whole day if the found out about it !!! So that shows that i don't have any choice =.= Booohooohooo , so sad ): So tomorrow , i'll have to work at VivoCity the most busy shopping mall ever !!!! Help help help !!!!! D:

That's all i'm gonna post for today . Been so long since i typed this long . HAHHAHAH :D Ouhhh and i really really miss my bestfr and my dearest qiulin !!! Miss you all so much !! Love ygguys :D Take care all awsome readers .

Bye .

2011-01-20T09:58:00.003+08:00

Good Morning Earthlings !

Hahah , it's been so long since i last update my blog early in the morning like this . Weeeiiirrrrddd much ^^ HAHA :D So i worked at Vivo City yterday , what an ugly bitch ! Went home earlier as there weren't any customer . Work was fine cause after 2 months , i finally get a hang with them . But i miss my laughing bitch , Lisdah ): Meet up soon okay minah ?! ^^ I'm still wondering if i still wanna work once school reopens for me . Hhhhmmmm ...... Suggestions ? Anyone ? Uhhh , nevermind , my dad has all the help i need . One simple question will be answered with one politic answer from him =.=

Currently , i can't stop thinking about the interview that i'll be gg later at ITE Simei . I'm so freaking damn scared !!!! Somebodyy help me ! I'm going to be a Nurse ^^ HAHHA :D Not my first choice but i'm willing to learn and change . For those who know me real well , they must be damn shocked ! Hahhaa :D Interview's at 4.30 pm and my ayah so sweet took day off just to accompany me to my interview later . Awwwwww , so sweet of my dad . Heh (: The feeling is like gg through N levels oral lah siaaaa =.= Can don't want go but still get the course or not ?! Perangaaai nak senang ajaa aku ! Whaaat to do , wish me luck readers ^^

Tomorrow = Friday = Meet up with the All Time Favourites = Double Happiness !!!!!!!!

Yaaay , tomorrow's friday ^^ Meeting Fir , Munir , Bestfr and Hafiz J !!!! I swear i miss them . Fir , we got so many things to talk about . From A-Z yknowwww ^^ Gg Hougang Green's Arnolds to just slack and talk and talk and talk and more talking !!!! Excited nyaaa !!! My baby munir dah slimm kan ? ^^ HAHHAHAHA :D Die , Apple's gonna kill me :DD

Gosh , now i better prepare for all the answer for later . Praying hard that i can answer all their unexpected questions laah ): The last time i feel this way was the day i took my N levels results . After that life been more to work and customers and never myself ! Takut nyaaaa !!! I guess that's all for today . Update again later after my interview aye ? Wish me luck readers . Take all superdupergreatbestawesomest readers .

Bye :D

2011-01-18T19:30:00.004+08:00

Hello Earthlings !!!

Gosh , my blog is so dusty , old and dirty ! Been busy handling my own feelings , work , friends . Been trying to adapt myself to a whole new different life . Life been hard . Didn't do well for N levels and didn't get into the course that i want ! At first i really thought that life was unfair and why i can't be happy just like the others but then i gave it a second thought .

Alhamdulillah , life been great for now . I am happy with i have . My family , my friends who still hear me out and my job which always keep my time filled . Thank you Allah , cause after all i'm as happy as what others are . And guess what ?! I'm shortlisted for Nursing for April Intake . Alhamdulillah . I understand now that everything happens for a reason . And with my mum prayers , i'm finally going back to school !!! Thank you so much Allah :D There's no word that can describe my feelings . I was so freaking happy !!!

Truthfully , i miss my dearest 4N3 classmates . I miss everyone so much !!! Let's have a meet up real soon please guys D: But actually i don't mean it ah . I seriously don't wanna distract yguys or whatsoever so yguys can focus . I'm actually trying to pull myself away from bestfr , qiulin , fir , apple , orange and almost everyone . Sorry yguys . I wanna move on for a moment and not disappoint myself . Bestfr , both of us has change now . I'm happy for you no matter what . I'm sorry if i'm gonna ignore you after this . I have my own reasons . As for Fir , after this friday , everything will change too . I'm so sorry guys . Thanks for the greatest and bestest memories in 2010 ~

Iki , wanie , Irsayd i miss yguys equally much . We will meet up someday but i'm sorry if things would be different between us . I know i've promised and i wanna keep my promise but .... It's hard for me to say it . I'm sorry ya guys D: I love and miss ya'll dearly v v v much !!!! Do study hard okay . I'll pray for the best for yguys !!!!

I've realised jealousy will always come in between even between Best of Friends . It's something that it's hard to share and explain . I'm so sorry but i am pulling myself away from yguys . I won't forget yguys but i will be away from yguys . I'm truly sorry . A situation happens because of a reason behind it . I'll always miss yguys . I'm sorry , Goodbye .

; Distance of time and place generally cure what they seem to aggravate; and taking leave of our friends resembles taking leave of the world, of which it has been said, that it is not death, but dying, which is terrible.

2010-12-27T21:46:00.005+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Gosh , things been crazy so i'm sorry for not updating for quiet a long time now . So i think my life is better now . Way way happier cause i'm being professional ! Stupid people just will say that =.= So i'll be gg ITE as results is like actually not that bad lah 2 ungraded but not that important to me . Hah :D

Month of December been busy for me as been working full month . Hardworking righttt ? I know ^^ HAHA :D So looking forward for new year and new school . Scared much but won't be caring much about it . But the bad thing is that i'll be gg away from Bestfr ): For 4 long years , i've been so attached to her and finally we're gg seperate ways seriously , idk how am i gonna survive without her by my side ): No more FafaWawa package in NVSS !!

Sadly , bestfr , i'll be leaving you and the the whole of 4N3 . Thank you so much for the great year alright . You all must study hard for O's okay ! I promise , i'll come back to visit when i can with Fizzo , Huiying , Clara and Munir okay ? I love you all so much ! Yguys been the best and i really appriciate it . Thank you so much :DD Love you all :DD

Wanie , Iki , Irsyad , Amir , Bestfr , Firzanah , Apple , Orange , Qiulin , Hafizzudin , Evelyn , Yuting , and just everyone ! Study hard okay . I promise i'll never forget yguys and i'll visit yguys often don't worry . Love you all especially my dearest 4N3 babies ! Love you all . Have a great year of 2011 okay ? Don't forget me my babies :D

2010-12-01T12:08:00.005+08:00

Hello Earthlingss !!

First of all , i wanna wish my dearest buddy a Happy Sweet Sixteen ! Finally munir dah 16 ahh ^^ So cutee . Miss you v v much buddy ! Can't wait to see you this friday ! Must have alot alot of fun with you okay buddyyyy !! Ouhhhh and i wish all the best for your future and results baby !!! And thanks for being such a great friend for 3 long years eventhough you can be annoying at times but you're always there to hear me out . Thanks alot buddyy ! Love you v v much !

*hugs*♥♥♥

Let's start blog proper !

Yesterday met Twin and Bestfrr !!! So happy got to meet them . Miss them like hell much siaaa !! We were super noisy everywhere we go , in the train , bus , walking ! Simply everywhere lah kan !! First stop was Bugis as Twin and Bestfr have this Interview . They were super cutee lah . Wanna go interview tapi tak tau the shop at where ! Freakingly , they got the shop which they hated the most ! HAHAHHAA ! Kesian , tu lah maki that shop banyak banyak lagi ! Padan muka !! HAHAHHA :D Twin was so not happyy with it lah ! While waiting for them i walked by myself around Bugis Junction ! And on that time , Baby was having an interview as well at Suntec City . Too bad can't accompany him ah . Sorry .

Yada Yada Yada , Bestfr and Twin ended their interview . Then we heeded to Arab Street to have our lunch there ! We had our lunch at usuals , ZamZam ! Yummy yummy treats !! Super kecoh lah while eating ! With me always picking up fights with Twin and Bestfr ! Love them alooot alooot manzzzz ! The best i've ever had ^^ Hahaha . After lunch we heeded to Bugis Street as Twin's mummy wants something there . Then we trained to Amk cause we wanna give Fee a surprise visit at her workplace ^^ Before that visited my workplace and found out that Kak Maya was working alone , so i helped her for awhile before meeting Fee !

Blah blah blah blah , left Spring and heeded to Cathay to visit Fee ! So happy TTM get to meet Fee lah ! Freaking miss her badly siaaa :(( Must go out with me , Bestfr and Twin soon okay !! Miss you like freaking much !! Fee perangai siaak , tak nak layan customer ^^ HAHHAHA ! Auntie asyik nak discount ajaaa . Annoying much !!!!! HAHHAHAHA . Then heeded back to spring and left as Twin and Bestfr need to find black pants for their work ! And Kak Maya wants Coke . So there we left again !

Twin and Bestfr found their perfect pants for work and a v v cheap price looor . 20 bucks onlyy !! So happy for them cause finally they got a job . All the best okay Twin and Bestfr !! Can one laaahh !!! Must always smile ! Bestfr , better don't sleep at work okay !! HAHAHHA :D Then heeded back to Spring as i need to wait for baby also ! Then blah blah blah blah , we all heeded home . It was raining heavily siaa ! Freaking cold laah !! Don't wish to tell what happened at busstop . Skipped to in the bus . Had a super duper awesomely great chat with Twin and Bestfr ^^ Been long since we talked the way we did manzzz ! Love you all . Then they all left . So sat with baby ♥ Baby sent me home . And we're stucked in the rain . So we had to wait =.= Hated it manzzz ! But i had a great time with baby !! Love you v v much baby !!

Currently thinking what to get for my dearest munir cause i believe he has everything that he wants =.= How ahaaa ??? Ohhh-amm-geee !!! Can't wait for fridayyy manzz ! Meeting people that i've missed most ! Fir , wanie , iki , irsyad and munir !! Hugs pleaseeee :DD Gosh , can't wait can't wait can't wait !!!!! One more day friendssss ! Love you all alot pleaseee !!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

That's all for today readers !! Till i update again when i'm not lazyy okay ! Perangai so like my Baby , LazyBum !!!! HAHHAHAHA ! Alright then , take care all supersuperawesome readers !! Bye :DD

2010-11-29T22:15:00.002+08:00

; Hello Earthlings !

I'm updating blog right again ! Haha :D I'm so happy cause i'll be meeting dearest bestfr tmrw ! Miss her so much manzzz !! So long never meet her lah . Finally meeting her . Maybe twin too , idk about that ah . Let's talk about work now !

Worked at Vivo City for both Saturday and Sunday ! It was freaking awesoomeee !!! Worked with the best ! Lisdah , Kak Maya , Hazel and Lily ! Sungguh the not bored at all manzz ! Schedule for this week is not out yet . Wednesday then i shall get it ! Can't wait to work alr . Haha :D It's great yknow !!

Ouhhh and dearest boyfr , i miss you v v much alr !! And thanks for the Saturday and Sunday baby !! Meet you again real soon okay honey ?? The feeling of being with you is just so great ! Thanks for everything okay baby . I love you v v v much honey !!! ♥♥♥

That's all for today dearest readers ! Ouuuhh , and i can't wait to meet Fir , Munir , Irsyad , Iki , Wanie and Azriq on Friday !!! Miss yguys so muchhh !!! See yoi on Friday people !! That's all then . Take care all awesome readers !! Bye :D

2010-11-26T18:33:00.003+08:00

; Hello Eartlings !!

Ohh-amm-gee , i seriously just can't wait to meet so many people . Missing all of them like freaking badly . Especially Bestfr and Qiulin . Meeting up soon alr ! Next week gg out with Bestfr ! Yaaaayy :D So happy ! Wanna kacau Fee at her workplace ^^ Haha :)) Then will be meeting Firzanah , Munir , Irsyad and Idk who else coming along ah . Gg sentosa to celebrate my friend's birthday ^^ HAHA ! Omg , just can't wait but there's still one thing that i can wait for which is to work . Tomorrow i have to work =.= At Vivo siaa !!! Never worked there before will be sooo akward ! Hopefully Lisdah's working !! Wish me luck mannzz for tomorrow !!

Till here i shall update . I will update again once i'm free or not lazyy ! HHAHAH :D Till then readers ! Take care all awesome readers :D Bye !

2010-11-24T16:49:00.002+08:00

; Hello Earthlings !!

Today the whole day i stayed at home doing nothing =.= What a boring day !! Can't wait to get back to work this weekend , at least it would keep me busy eventhough it's tiring ! && I need cash !! There's so many things i wanna get for myselff ! Pay day please come fast ! Thank you :D

Gosshh , there are so many people that i missed dearly !! Iki , wanie , bestfr , twin , fee , munir , firzanah , nabilah , afrina , quraisha , badriah and lisdah !! Must meet up v v soon kay dearest Iki and Wanie ! Let's do movie marathon or something together again babygirls !!! Bestfr , twin and Fee , we soo need an outing together ^^ Been long since we sit down and chat ! Miss you all v v much :( Munir and Firzanah , we shall meet on one of our friend birthday wich is in the same day as munir's ^^ Yknow i know guys :)) My madrasah girls , i'm still waiting ^^Lisdah , weekend see you at work . HAHHA !!

Ouh and i miss my dearest boyfr so much ! It's been long since we last met and baby get well soon okay ! Hopefully will get to see you soon . Love you baby !!

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Till i update again readers cause seriously , lately i don't have much to say . HAHHAHA ! Take care all awesome readers ! And dearest 4N3 , I mis you all v v v much ! Gathering soon ya ? Love ya'll !!!! Bye :D

2010-11-19T23:19:00.005+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Ohhh-amm-gee , there are soooo many people's name i wanna mention here . I don't even know who's know i wanna start with ! HAHHAHAHA ! First of all , i wanna the whole of Vistarians who gave me the best day of my life . The memorable Graduation High Tea that i'll never forget ! And i wanna apologize to my dearest bestfr , Haniz Izyani for actually messing up your life . It felt great after texting and clear everything with you ! Love you bestfr !!

Now i better typed all the name that i wanna say and yguys are v v special to me ! The v v most important one , of course , Wawa my dearest bestfriend who knows me best ! Hanis , Farisha , Nurin , Deanna , Putri , Firzanah , Apple , Orang , Qiulin , Clara , Yuting , Wei Boon , Twinny , Fee , Irysad , Azriq , Amirul , Firhan , Hafiz J , Munir , Miss Dino , Amira , Mr Ho , Of course the whole of 4N3 , All the teachers who taught 4N3 , (too many to mention) ♥♥♥♥

There are so many more but i just can't recall all the name ! Gosh , i just wanna say that thanks for giving the greatest year of my life , 2010 . Yguys taught me a whole new meaning of Friendship ! Thank you v v much . Till we meet again soon . All the best in life and i'll always remember yguys from what happened in 2007 till today , 2010 . Thank you v v much ! Love you all !!!!

&& Baby , i will miss you the whole of next week )): Can't meet you !! We shall meet once i get back okay baby ! I love you and i miss you v v v much !!! ♥♥

I'll update my blog real soon aye readers ! Been really really lazy to type and correct all my spelling mistakes ! HAHHA ! & Once again , thanks for the greatest day the whole of Vistarians ! Till we meet again someday and see how much we've grown up ! Take care yguys :D

2010-11-01T16:24:00.002+08:00

; I think you guys made a bitch out of yrself by lying . When i already know like months ago . Yes it's not gonna be sweet to yr other friends but maybe not for my classmates . And by giving false about hair doing ? Ohhh please , i already knew way before my bestfr does . Thanks for the false hope though ♥ Why manz ?! They are few other performers also but i don't see they made a big fuss of it and most important is they don't lie ! After getting to know that yguys lied , what made you think that we're gonna come ? If you tell us that you're have surprise for us earlier , maybe i would consider . But it's too late . & this is the last year i'll be seeing yguys and this a special surprise yguys called ? Thanks ah ♥

Hanis , thanks for the false hope you gave me . You never get tired don't you . I think you love making a fool out of me . Seriously , i though whatever happened in sec one won't happen again but someway somehow , you're just not sick of it . Seriously babe , thanks for the sweeteset surprise that you've planed but you just have to ruined it by lying . Why can't you act normally just like farisha and nurin ? They have great voice too but i don't see they boosting about it . Actually the main point is i just wanna say thank you for lying . You make a great actress .

Thanks friends , thank god this is the last year i'll be in school with yguys ! I just can't stand it anymore okay . You guys we the greatest friends but towards the one the year yguys just push it to the extend that i can't handle in anymore . I don't wanna owe yguys anything so i thank you all for all your love , care and concern yet sorry if i've hurt yguys feelings and offended yguys , which i know i've done . Lastly , thanks for being my friend .

2010-10-29T14:26:00.002+08:00

Hello Earthlings :D

Ouhhh , gosh i had alot alot of fun yterday with the greatestawesoemestbestest friends and Cikgu Zuhaidah plus her 3 children . Had dinner together and it was super duper kecoh lah . It was also a day where we celebrated our friend , azriq , birthday :D Happy Sweet Sixteen dude ;)

Sadly yterday , many didn't turn up . Even bestfr . Sad ? V v ! Haven't been spending much time with bestfr as she's been busy with her dance competition and stuff . Hmmph . . Well , i wish her all the best . That's all i can say . Back to the dinner . We talked non stopped and don't bother to know about laughing lah kan . We laughed even more . Especially with Ms Zu's youngest son . Hahaha :D Cute betul budak tu ! Hahaha . Overall , great dinner with dearest friends and Cikgu Zuhaidah ! Thanks for the day guys .

&& Thanks baby for accompanying last night after my dinner . Love you ! ♥

2010-10-27T20:59:00.003+08:00

Replacement ? Seriously , the day he left me i thought infact i knew no one can replace him cause he was the best thing i ever had ! To me he loved me the way that no other can . He cared about me more than he cared about himself . He missed me more than i missed him . Everything was perfect when i was with him that's why i told myself that no one can ever replace me . But i was proven wrong . I fell in love all over again . And i think i'm v v happy with him right now . No one has ever proved to me that they can make me happy and loved the way H used to . But baby , you stole my heart . I love you and i feel you . Thanks baby . I love you v v much ! ♥

~ D'yanto Lovees ♥♥

2010-10-22T15:46:00.001+08:00

I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND , WAWA SUPERGIRL !

2010-10-21T17:51:00.006+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

I'll not be posting any long feelings nor my day . Insted i'll be posting pictures of my dearest 4N3 mates whom i'll miss once i graduate this year . All i wanna say is thank you so much for always being there for me everytime i need yguys . Yguys made 2010 the best year of my life . To you all , ILYGVVVM ! ♥♥♥♥ Plus the teachers who has never gave up on me . Thanks for having faith in me yet sorry for disappoint yguys time and again . They are Miss Dino , Mr Ho , Mrs Brian , Mdm Suhana , Miss Lee , Mr Sofiyan , Mr Ong , Mr Rashidin and Miss Shamini . Yguys been awesome . Thank you so much ! Love ya'll ♥♥♥♥

THANKS YA'LL FOR BEING THE GREATESTBESTESTSUPERDUPERAWESOME FRIENDS , I EVER HAD ! ♥♥♥♥

2010-10-19T20:21:00.004+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Sorry for keeping my blog dusty . Been busy with school and finding jobs . Furthermore i'm here to update as i feel i have few things to say here . I can't say it to any of my friends as they won't understand me . I need a diary but i guess here is the best place cause at least i know someone would be reading it even someone i don't know . It's the month of october . Well , it just reminded me about everything about October 2009 . Here it goes ~

Sometimes i wish that i could stop time and let me rewind it to every moments that i've always missed . I wanna fixed what's been long broken . I wanna make you happy and never sad . I wanna be the best and never the worst to you . I wanna make you proud and never disappointed . I wanna be who i really am and never act . I wanna be the truth and never the lie . But due to my stupidity , i know it can never happen. I didn't make it the best when you're with me and loved me . The problems we faced , has always started from me . I made you cry and hurt yrself . Wth , i think i was doing ?! Hurting the one i loved most ! In 10 days time , it's gonna be 1 year eversince we went our seperate ways and i know i gotta forget bout you . All i know i wanna graduate this year and never coming back to my secondary life . I wanna move on and learn to live without you by my side or around me . I believe everything happens for a reason but till now , i don't understand the reason why you left me the way you did . I really don't . ILOVEYOUDude ! Sixth April TwentyOhhNine - TwentyNine October TwentyOhhNine .

2010-09-29T18:56:00.006+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Guess what ?! I lost my voice . Barely can talk furthermore if i talk no one could here me D: Sad or whaat siaa =.= Been drinking alot of plain water yet this happen , Why ohh why ?! Laughing Buddha just lost her voice . 4N3 has been really quiet lately . HAHA ! It's okay . By the time our Class BBQ come , ill get my voica back ^^ Don't worry .

Yet again , i had the most awesomestgreatamazing time with my dearest 4NAs friends . Eventhough there was lesser people , the great atmosphere was there ! But i was abit down as dearest bestfr wasn't there and i saw someone smoking . I shall post about that later . Back to the happy moments . I was so happy when betfr called me when we all were at hanis's house eating . She always know how to cheer me up . Love ya bestfr .

Seriously , i really hope yterday wasn't the last for all of us to see each other and gather togther like that . It's like the first time we all get togther ! Gosh , i am so happy :D Thanks for the great last few memories and times yguys gave me ! Soon we all will be sitting for our O levels . Good luck for all . I know yguys can do this , even if we were to go to ITE , no one should get more than 19 points ! Get it ?! HAHA :D Really hope that we have a gathering after N levels . Love yguys !

2010-09-27T19:22:00.009+08:00

Hello Earthlings .

Back for blogging again ! Ohh-amm-gee , guess what ?! N levels is just next week =.= Yet i've studied nothing . Idk why the hell i'm not in the studying mode ! Fuck . Why am i just not studying ? Why ohh why ? HAHA ! Dramatic pulak aku nie . But seriously i better study . After tmrw i think i can get my focus back alr . Hopefully .

Can't wait for tomorrow as we'll be jalan raya with my dearest 4NAs cliques again ! Like finally after so long knowing each other this is the second time we gg out together again ! Happy nyer :D Hopefully everything will go well . But dearest bestfr can't make it as she has performance tmrw D: Haiyaaa , the atmosphere would be different she's usually the kecoh one . Takpa bestfr , i faham . ♥ All the best for tomorrow okay . Yet amirul will be there . So kira ada replacement lah gituk . And hopefully dearest twin can make it . I miss her alot alot alot alot alot ! ! ♥♥ Gosh , just hope tomorrow will be better that last wednesday ! Yaaaayyyy ~

Al
right . This a special post for my dearest Iki BbyG .

Gosh , no one knows how much i missyouu dearest Tortise !!! We've been texting but not meeting . Same school but rarely see you . Can meet after school but been busy with our different programmes and plans . I still remember the first time we lepak . We would only say 3 to 5 words to each other or just laugh . But now each time we see each other we either laugh or say our tortise secret . HAHA ! I just miss you alot . Seeing you just for awhile will make me smile . Andandand we shall get our tortise real soon . Especially for you cause you're a real freaking slow tortise ! ! HAHAHA :D Selalu asyik lambat aja =.= So cute ~ BbyG , i really hope i get to spent time with you real soon . And don't forget our date after my N levels . Movie treat ^^ Yaaaayyyyy ! Can't wait manzzz . Thanks for understanding me and always there for me whenever i'm down . Iloveyouvvmuch BbyG !

That's for my deares Iki Chickaroo ♥♥

2010-09-24T17:37:00.005+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Sorry for keeping this blog dusty . Been busy to update . So here i am updating my dusty blog . 22nd September , I had the greatest time of my life . Like finally the whole of 4NAs students jalan raya together . Except for armand , amirul and amni . Gosh , it was a total of great birthday celebration for all the September babie especially Firzanah ! Hope she had a great time of her life . Full of suprises huh Fir ? Love you .

Session Jalan Raya bersama 4NAs were the best manzzz . It felt so complete and great ! It's been so long since we can get together like the other day . I tell you there was alot of pictures taken by Farisha our special photographer ! Haha :> Magis tricks by Syafiq's younger brother , Ikwan . Fuuuuh , it was more than just great fun . I bet tuesday will be as gerek as that day . I can't wait alr ! Love ya'll 4NAs friends !!! :D

2010-09-14T15:16:00.001+08:00

` We all have that boy; he’s the boy we try to pretend we aren’t looking for as we make our way to class. He’s the boy that we lie about and claim to not care about anymore. He’s the boy that gives you the cliche butterflies, complete with the weakness in the knees. He’s the boy we’re thinking about as we read this. I think every single girl has this boy, and every single girl will remember him forever - he’s not the one for us, but he’ll always be somewhere in our hearts.

2010-09-02T15:37:00.003+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Gosh , i had a great , noisy and annoying day with dearest primary sch heartbeats yterday ! It feels so good to meet all of them afte 4 years of not meeting . As there's only 3 malay girls in 6G , so there was only me , aqilah and indah ! Sure miss my babes alot ^^ As for the boys , i finally get to meet mubin , asri , fariq , isa , fahrul , hilman ! The boys sure change alot sia ! Especially in terms of height ! It was funny as i used to be the tallest among all of them but when i saw them yterday i feel so short just like how i feel in secondary school . And eventually fariq made me feel whole lot "better" !

Fariq : Guys , korang perasan something tak ?

The Rest : Apa pulak kau nie ?

Fariq : Dulu si faz ni lagy tinggi dari kiter semua kan ?

What happened ehk Faz ?

Me : Thanks alot uh Fariq ! *unsincere smile*

The Rest : Laugh Out Loud non stop !

=.= They all so mean lah ! Tapi takper . Short pun still taller than indah and aqilah ! Then heeded to Tampines Mall to buka puasa . Was stuck between Seoul Garden , Swensens , Pizza Hut and Pastamania . Ended up we break fast at Pastamania as that was the only that still has seats for all the 9 of us . Ordered , and blah blah blah ! Ate and we spent like damn alot on food sia ! Semua makan . . Haha :D After buka , we just stroll around . Snaps few pictures ! Feeling feeling tourist eyy Asri ? Haha =.=

After all the eating , camwhoring , memekak-ing , we all walked to the busstop to heed home as Mubin has takraw . I swear the bus trip home was fucking noisy ! Calling each other dad's name .

V v v irritating sia ! What to do , tahan aja loor . After so long , seeing them being who i really know was actually great and funny ! Teasing each other like how we used to in primary school was really funny . Once a while so must treasure ! It was great to see my friends :D Shall meet again for Hari Raya aye ?! Love yguys ♥♥

`I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see . I wish I knew your wishes , so I could give you everything you want . I wish I knew what makes you happy , so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world . And lastly , I wish I were a cell in your blood , so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart . But soon after that i realised i don't even exist in your heart .

2010-08-31T15:54:00.002+08:00

~ When love is lost , it's not the letting go of your loved one that will hurt the most . It's the holding on to them that will be killing . It took a while to understand what love is , but it'll take forever to forget what it was like you . After a year of having to live without you , I've realized I lost me when I lost you ; I miss you . If I knew missing you was going to be a part of my life , I never would have let you in . I don't miss you and you alone ; I miss you and me together . When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you , not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you . It makes me forget the distance and capture you

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2010-08-30T16:13:00.003+08:00

~ Even though you're not here and nowhere to be found , my heart says you're still here and everywhere to be found .

~ So , here I am, all by myself , thinking of you - no one else . There's a feeling inside and as hard as I try , it just won't go away .

~ I don't want you to know , so I try to be strong . I don't want you to think that without you , I can't go on . But that's how it is , and that's how it will be , because I love you , I need you , I miss you and without you , there's just no me .

I've always believe that quotes always speaks up for someone's feeling v v well . Without searching it for a long time you'll know what the quotes mean and how it feels . I've learn alot . Letting go doesn't mean i'm weak it just mean that i'm strong enough to let go and accept the fact that you love me no more . I know that loving someone is not about being with them but it's about seeing the person you love succeed and be happy . So here i am typing , i really hope that you'll do well and i know you can . Do work hard for you have your friends' support . We'll be there to cheer for each other till the finishing line .

2010-08-29T10:24:00.003+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Gosh things been great for me and my family . Been laughing alot with them especially with own Mr Bean , Abang ! It's so great to go through your weekends without any quarell with my family . We spent like 6 hours in geylang just to find we the girls baju raya . And adik got what she wished for which is red for the Baju Raya . But this year will be abit different cause we usually wear the same colour and pattern but this year same colour but different type . Me and adik will be wearing kebaya while my mum and kakak will be wearing what people call the modern kebaya . So cool but one thing's for sure once we sampai at rumah nenek people will be saying my family keling ! Hahha :D Hope they won't go oberboard =.= I love my baju manzz ! V v the merah :) And guess where we buka ?! Hahaha . We buka at Budget's Terminal Carpark . Like picnic siaaa . We ate alot manzz there ! Andand dapat buka with the whole family for the first time ever ! Can you imagine that ? After so long of fasting only yterday dapat buka beramai -ramai ! I believe that Family Fafa gerek eyyy . Haha :D I think that's all for today . Take care all awesome readers !

~ I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see . I wish I knew your wishes , so I could give you everything you want . I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do , and together we could make them come true . I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world . And lastly , I wish I were a cell in your blood , so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart . But soon after I realised that I didn't even exist somewhere in your heart ♥♥

2010-08-27T16:34:00.003+08:00

~ Sometimes i wonder why do people always change . Till today i have yet to find the answer . Everything around you will defenietly change when the day comes cause that's how it lives . I don't know if the changes are due to some personal reason . As i've mentioned , One day i'm sure almost everything will change but i know of one thing that will never ever change and that is Memories . I believe that memories will always stay the way it will always be . Memories are never as fragile as friendship , relationship and feelings . It can never drop and breaks into thousand and one pieces like every hearts do . That's why Memories are v v special to everyone . So please do not destroy the memories i have cause that's what i'm left with and i wanna treasure it . Memories are forever the same ♥

2010-08-26T20:38:00.005+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Ohhh-amm-gee , i had a great girls day with my bestfr and hanis . Thanks for the new hair girls ! Korang and your imaginations . Hanis jealous kan ? Hahha :D Tu lah , who ask you to cut your hair ? Padan muka =.= Just Kidding . After straightening my fringe me and hanis rushed back home to break fast with our family . Lucky 88 datang cepat .

Today break fast dengan adik ajaa . Boring seyh , fafa look at her she look at me . Boring ! ! But breaking fast with adik is so cool cause there's not much to wash . Hahha :D Perangai Lazy Bum sia fafa ! Now , i'm updating blog and chatting with Wanie BbyG :D Miss her alot manzz . Miss Iki too ! Haiyoo , must spend time with ygirls after my N levels .

Wanie , kak fafa irritating kan =.= Fickel minded siaa . I know yknow aye BbyG ? Hahha :D Stress . Bestfr , what should i do ? Fafa tak tau nak buat apa ? I think i need my ibu's opinion . Gosh , sungguh susah . Tolong , Help apa apa lah ! Dah lah , i think i shall update till here . Take care all awesome readers !

2010-08-25T15:50:00.005+08:00

Try to spot yrself in this picture ♥♥

Hello Earthlings !

Gosh , today is such a tough day for me . Alhamdullilah , i passed my english . But i'm worried about my D&T :/ Mr Ong said i'm under the group of the unsafe people . And that concerns my N levels . I did quite badly for my journal i guess . Maybe what a friend of mine said was true . I'm always busy with outings and meet-ups due to that i neglect my studies . While people are already improving , here i am crying for i'm scared . It just saddens me as i worked really hard for my D&T journal but it end up being such a loser =.= Oh god , please tell me what should i do ?

I'm thinking of dropping my D&T but my dearest classmates just won't let me . It's not because they wanna see me fail or pass . All they wanna see is i've worked hard and achieve what i deserve and they really don't wanna see me cry nor disappointed . I'm glad i've such supportive bunch of classmates . I'm really fortunate . While i've already given up on myself , they are busy working things out for me . Thanks friends and teachers for never giving up on me . I just don't know what to say , Rain or Shine yguys were always there for me . Supporting me and telling me not to give up . Thanks alot guys , these are the moments that i'll always remember .

Bestfr , Fizzo , Munir , Firzanah , Qiu Lin , Clara , Hafizzudin , Wei Boon , Glenn , Hanis , Twin , Fee , Iki , Wanie , Miss Dino , Mr Ho , Mr Ong , Mrs Brian and The whole lot of 4N3 + the teacher who teach me . Thanks to all for having faith in me and never given up on me . Thank you so much ! Yguys been the reason why i'm still scoring few marks in every subjects . The care and concern yguys gave me can never i forget . For that i promise i'll try my v v best till the end . Cause i know i'm left few metres to complete . Thanks for the support guys . Love you all to the tiny bits !

Hmmmm , i know success don't come in a snap but somehow i know i'm just not up to it . Gosh , i swear i'm not ready for N levels D: I know miracles won't happen that's why i have to start early . I don't wanna disappoint anyone , especially my parents , abang , kakak and bestfr . I shall try and give it my best shot . I guess i shall update till here . Take care awesome readers !

2010-08-24T19:54:00.003+08:00

Back for a second post .

I wanna thank firzanah for actually hearing me out just now :D Thank you v v much ! EverydayHeroes might be dead but not our friendship aye ? I'll always treasure and remember this moments for there'll never be a next year D:

I don't know why , i've decided to browse through my old posts from last year and made myself cry for nothing . Reading everything that typed on Sixth of every months . It used to be so happy and perfect even when there's fight but i guess nothing ever last isn't in ? All the ups and downs were also the happy and memorable moments that i'll always remember . The way we lie to each other just to cover up our mistake was also sweet instead of painful nor hurtful . Almost everything about you was just so perfect and nice . I guess that's why i can't move on now when you're so far ahead from me . It's okay cause i believe this feelings come and go , and i bet it will soon be gone . God , it was the wrong move to read all my old posts . But at the same time it made me realised how nice you used to be and how thoughtful you were towards me . Seriously , i screwed the love in our relationship . Thanks alot Fafa for making him convince to leave yourself . All i know that i miss him alot and that's all .

I know this is the wrong time to feel and act this way but i just can't help it . But as i've promised firzanah , i'll never let this feelings get my way and ruined my future . N levels are coming and i must put my 100% focus on my studies ! Prelims results was such a Fucker ! V v dissapointing and sad . Failing almost all my subjects , i swear i ain't gonna get through N levels D: Eventhough i wanna leave secondary school and enter ITE but i still wanna good and satisfying results . Oh gos , please help me with this . I do study but i guess i'm just dumb enough to not remember what i've studied . Idiot you Fafa ! Gosh , i'm so scared to sit for my N levels . Wish me luck aye readers ? I guess i shall blog till here only . Take Care all awesome readers !

2010-08-24T15:53:00.006+08:00

~ Distance never separates two hearts that really care , for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there . But whenever I start feeling sad , because I miss you , I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss . But when distance has became the cause of the problem then that's when you know you've drifted . And all you can do then is to miss that someone badly as distance was never a problem before . ♥♥♥

2010-08-23T18:47:00.005+08:00

~ The places i go , the songs i hear , the things i do and the topic i talked about with my friends , almost everything reminds me of you . I thought i knew i was over it . But i guess i was wrong . Why did it happen so fast ? For i still need you by my side ♥♥♥

2010-07-14T19:44:00.004+08:00

~ Happy 16th Birthday Dearest Hanis Izyani {!}

Chey dah 16 uh my dearest sistaZ . May all your wishes come true and may you succeed in everything you wanna achieve in your life . And of course you have to work hard for your N levels okay ! & I really treasure the friendship that we've shared for the past four years except for the sec one part . HAHA ! ! Thanks for always being there for me when i'm down . You never fail to cheer me up and make me laugh ! And i really missed those time we spent in Pulau Tioman . You've been a great mum manzzz ! HAHA ! And i remember how patient you were when you needed to be my buddy . Thanks for not giving up on me and always supported me ! Love you big time girlf :D Lastly , stay happy aye Dearest Hanis cause i know you will keep people around you happy when you are sweetheart ! ♥♥

Back to proper blogging . Gosh i will skip everything about school as nothing much happened also . After school visited eyfah bby as she was sick . Didn't really expect her to be in a bad condition as i what i saw just now . I swear i take back whatever i've said to her after i visited her just now . She had difficulty breathing and we could see that she was struggling ! OMG , i didn't have the heart to leave her just now but aizil , irsyad , wanie and iki was there went me and bestf left . I hope that she'll get better soon . Might be visiting her tomorrow if she don't come to school again . As for wanie , i'm not mad lah . Of course i know you tak sengaja kaaan ! HAHAHA ! SO cutee ~ Just promise me that you will try your v v best aye adik ? PLEASE ! Get well soon eyfah bby D: Hope to see you in school soon aye ? Till here i shall blog . Take care readers !

Bye :D

2010-07-10T21:13:00.004+08:00

~ Hello earthlings . Back for a second post . Just got back from watching Despicable Me with Fizzo , Bestf and Hafizzudin . I had lotsa lotsa fun manzz ! It's been long since we went out together eversince i broke up with hafizzudin . It feels so great just to see the four of us together like just now . Miss those days siaaa . Wouldn't it be great if i wasn't even with Hafizzudin in the first place so that our friendship won't be that rocky as what it is . No regrets but just hope that we could turn back time . Andand Thank You v v v much Fizzo for treating us :D Next time Fafa punya turn ehk ? Insyallah okay korang . Not much picture taken but i had fun while taking pictures with yguys . It's been long siaa since we kecoh kecoh bersama-sama . HAHA ! The movie was great but sumpaah Hafizzudin and Fizzo bising gileer siaa ! It's was kinda boring at first but as time go by it was even funny and sweet :D It's a reccomend movie ! Yguys should catch if you can to manzz ^_^ I swear i had alot alot alot of fun with yguys today . But seriously we should have gone to Marina Sq or even Vivo loor cause after watching the movie , we didn't know where to go siaa ! Then kakak said pulak must be home early she at home alone . Abang and adik follow parents go Johore . Pity kakak -.-

So we went home after slacking for nothing looor ! Bus-ed home . Reached home kakak was like so pig-ish ! HAHA :D My new word with kakak ! Blah Blah Blah , me and kakak v v lapaar loor but kakak v v lazy to go out and makan so we decided to order Pizza Hut ! ! But what a watse , we can't finish it . Just keep it for later just in case we get hungry again . Dangerous ! ! Now i'm being pig-ish cause i'm like doing nothing but just sitting infront of this Laptop . Updating blog and facebook . Btw , pictures are all out at my Facebook . Fizzo and Wawa kalau nak tag , self-service aye ? I think i shall blog till here readers ! Bye :D

2010-07-10T10:40:00.004+08:00

{♥♥} Happy Belated 16th Birthday to my dearest bestfriend *i think uh* , Fizzo ! Chey , dah 16 uh . Hahaha :D Good thing me and wawa didn't bully you yesterday as it was your birthday so let go lah kaan . But today is Ten July that means we can bully you all over again :D Ouhhh , ya and Happy Monthsary yang entah ke berape to me , you and wawa :D ? Lost count siaa . It's been great to have you as my friend cause we do fight but jyeaah we always work things out . Well , i guess between me , you and wawa it's gonna be hard for us to be angry with each other for a long time . Gonna meet you with hafizzudin later as you're treating me and wawa to watch movie . Terima Kasih yer abang hafiz ! hahaha :D Sound so tuaaa ! Lastly , do work extremely hard for your N levels aye ? And i know you can do it friend !

It's been long since i last went out with bestf , fizzo and hafizzudin . Finally we're gg out together today ! Really hope to have a great time with ya'll later manzz ! I need help like badly . Bestf , nak pakai bajuu apaaa ?! HAHA :D Fickel minded siaa fafa . Idk what to wear later . Nevermind shall call bestf soon ! I guess till here i shall blog . Take care readers :D

2010-06-25T14:44:00.004+08:00

~ Hello (: i'm quiet lazy to update anything about my life for now but as for today i just wanna post that i had a whole lotsa lotsa of fun with Munir and Firzanah ! They made me laugh alot today . Bestf wasn't around so it was kinda BORING lucky ada mereka ! hahaha :D thanks alot Munir and Firzanah . ouhhhh ya , thanks firzanah for fetching me and the busstop just now if not i would stuck there for quiet a long time siaaa ! Thank you ! also i had great recess with hanis ! and sumpaaah hanis v v Bias looor ! inner joke uh fir ! alright that's all i wanna type cause lazy already ^^ till here then . Bye {!}

You let me go
You found someone new
I just wanted you to know
That i still love you

You let me go , you went away . You didn't know that i wanted you to stay

You let me go , you didn't care . If you had to know , you were the one

The one i gave my heart to . The one i gave my time to

The one i wasted to be with . The one i deeply feel in love with

I think of you mostly every night . I wish i knew how to make things right

I will never forget , You and I from the first day we meet till the day i die

It's hard to keep on going from day to day take comfort of knowing that i'll find a way

I will move on , I'll find someone new . But my one chance is gone for someone like you

You let me go . You found someone new . I just wanted you to know that i still love you

~ The part that hurts me most , is knowing that i once had you and then lost you .

2010-06-24T16:40:00.005+08:00

~ This is dedicated to someone who was once mine and was once deeply in love with each other . I don't know if you'll be reading this but it's something that i have to say badly cause it's been kept too long in my heart .

; Your love is in my heart and i will always love you forever .

I miss everything we had together . I miss the way you hugged me and held me in your arms . The way we used to sit next to each other and talk about anything . Talked about how we would always be together . I really don't understand why i agreed on us going seperate ways . I have never regretted so much in my life , like i do losing you . I miss the way you look right into my eyes and the way we held hands . & most of all i miss the way my heart would skip a beat everytime you said the words " I Love You" . From the minute we ended it , i regretted but i didn't say anything cause at that point of time all i could do was cry . I remember after we broke up it was our recess and it was our first recess that we didn't go together . I remember i kept looking all over for you just to see if you were as sad as i were . And i also remembered that you were laughing happily on that recess . I could never forget that smiled you had on your face on that day . I didn't balme you cause maybe you felt like you've finally able to get rid of me from your life . After that i thought that i could just get on with my life even without having you around . But guess what ? It's harder that i thought , and i really regretted it . I've made the biggest mistake in my life . I wanted us to forget what happened and get back together but i know it's not as easy as said . So here i am regretting . It's almost 7 months eversince we broke up and i still love you as much i've always do . Wishing i could have another chance with you . Do you think it's ever possible ? Would ever love me again the way you used to ? What am i thinking ?! God , i'm in love with someone who doesn't love me . I don't wanna fall even more in love with you if there is never a chance of you loving me back . I just wish things would go back to the way they were . You were the sweetest guy and still are . You were the one but we had to ruin it all . But i wanna thank you because you gave me the best year of my life . You showed me what love really was and i will never forget it . I will never forget you but will you ever forget me ? Ummm , i just wanna say that i trully appriciate the love , care and concern that you showered me for that six months we were together . All those fights we had , tears that drop has always made us grew stronger together . I've never hated you even when i say i did . Also i wanna say that i'm truly sorry that i've always hurt for that six months . I never meant to hurt you . I know now is all too late to say anything but i need you to know that you truly were the best thing that happened to me . Cause you've always been the love of my life ♥♥ .

- come feel this magic i've been feeling since i met you ♥

2010-06-15T16:03:00.003+08:00

~ gosh , it's been long since i last updat my blog manzzz ! been down for the past few days that's why i didn't even enter my blog cause i know i'll read people's blog . and i don't want to cause i'll defenietly read something v v hurtful and will always make me cry . it's not because they mock me or whatsoever but . . . urrrggghhh ! nevermind . let's drop this . but today i am v v v happy because i'll be leaving to Pulau Tioman in 2 days time and ibu helped me with my packing just now ! semua sudah siap ^^ happy sekali cause i really don't know what to bawa siaa , lucky ibu nak tolong :D tinggal nak pergi ajaa . i can't wait to go and bestf knows why ^^ hehehehehe :D currently chatting with wanie bbygirl . god , i miss her v v much . she shared with me her problems and all . cheer up darling ! i'm here for you . and obviously i miss him v v much ! but jyeaah , i'm lying if i say he means nothing to me . hahahaha :D dah lah , lazy uh nk type long long still got alot to pack siaaa . and tomorrow i got alot to buy also . so jyeaaah .

that's all for today {!}

; To me true love is the sweetets thing in life . That's why we're all either in love or looking for love . Sometimes you have to work for it - especially when life gets in the way - but i believe true , deep love is always worth fighting for . {♥♥♥♥}

2010-06-11T09:54:00.005+08:00

~ gosh , i'm freaking tired due to yesterday's swimming/diving training ! aches everywhere D: tak boleh tahan manzz ! besides that i had a v v long day yesterday . i spent few hours at school doing my D&T . maatii siaaa , got my materials already and i gotta finish it soon . left school around 12 and met iki in 88 and off to wanie's house ^^ at wanie's house we watched this hindustan movie called Duplicate . funny + touching siaa :D then we had our lunch . iki's mum brought for us chappati ^^ v v v nice :D after lunch i left wanie's house as bestf and twin were already waiting for me . sorry bbygirls , gotta leave early . ada part 2 okay ? hahaha :D then heeded to Hougang MRT station to meet bestf and twin . lucky i on time siaa :D if not we would have missed the train . was abit down while in the train , ummmmm . . i think wanie should know why D: seddiihh D: nevermind , keep moving forward ^^ then reached at Outram MRT station . kecoh sia me and twin ! like tourist siolzz ! then to find our correct exit and we waited for fee . mampos ! fee lambat gileer ehk but still thanks for being late cause if now we would have to wait even longer for our instructors ! way to go fee :D took bus and heeded to Outram Secondary School ! i swear that would be my last time gng to that school sia ! i bet the students there can pass their 2.4 in no time siaaa ! hahahaha :D those who went there would know what i meant ! blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah . . . instructors came . blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah . . . got our equipments . check our equipments . blah blah blah blah blah . get changed ! andand yaaaakduusssh ! off into the pool :D i swear it was freaking cold . had our training and i'm a better swimmer now ! thanks sir Alex ^^ andand Sir Alex owe all of us one Ramlee Burger ! hahahahaa :D that's for being late :D then it was already 10.20 and we ended our training . Don't wish to tell how hard me and hanis got back home . blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah . . . parents fetch me and hanis . sent hanis back home , buying hanis one meal ^^ yknow i know :D heed home instead of having dinner i had my supper ! badol D: then off to sleeep :D as for today , i wanna say sorry munir , fizzo and hafiz J for not coming to the workshop today . too tired to come . sumpaah fafa tak laraat sia ! twin , bestf , fee and hanis , have a good rest and see yguys on thursday and may we have the greatest trip together ! wanie and iki , thanks for the time bbygirls . i had the greatest time with ygirls ! love ya ♥. twin bby , don't get panic easily . i'll be here for you . this we both won't die cause we know how to survive already :D love you , twin ♥♥ .

that's all for today {!}

; cause when i love you i would never turn my back on you even if you turn yours on me ♥♥

2010-06-09T16:13:00.003+08:00

~ meeting dearest bbygirls tomorrow ! yaaay , like finally :D missed them alot alot siaa ^^ but sad part is that i have to leave early tomorrow for my diving pool session at outram D: nevermind , main aim dapat meet dorang ^^ in ways i feel bad cause fafah thought that i totally forget about her . come on sweetheart ! how can i forget about you ?! i wish you could make it tomorrow D: anyways , currently chatting with wanie . mampos , if one sad confirm all also seddiih siaa . and the worst thing it would be the same thing ! hahaha (: shocking much ?! v v much siolzzzz ! i know yknow fafah knows lah kaan ! gosh , i better stop thinking about it siaa , it would only make me cry badly ! alright then , shall meet ygirls tomorrow ! love ya'll ♥♥

2010-06-07T16:39:00.002+08:00

~ hello earthlings , i know it's been long since i last update my blog ^^ been busy visiting nenek at the hopsital uh . now ni fafa dah update aites bbygirl ! was chatting with two of my awesomest bbygirls ! iki and wanie :D they're super duper sweet lah ^^ and we were chatting about i know yknow we know lah kanzz . hahaha :D i didn't actually realised that we were already so close until we missed each other . planning for meet ups and stuff ! till then i've realised that we grew closer each day (: texting each other and stuff . gosh , i love those replying texts we've been doing ! knowing yguys has been a blastzz ! as for wanie , we were close for quiet awhile now and lately we've been understanding each other even more ! it's like we knew each other for a very long time ! iki , thanks to irsyad i got to know you even better ! so glad that we know each other . and one thing's for sure we do have something in common :D ^^ bbygirls , i love ygirls alot ! and just so ygirls need to know , i'm always here for you ! love ygirls ! ♥♥

2010-05-29T12:39:00.002+08:00

~ fxck ! moving on and letting him go is harder that i've expected . the more i try to forget the more i miss you . idk why i still cry for you till today . i do miss you v v much ! i'm seriously wondering what's making me strong enough to still hold onto you when all i do is to wait for something better to happen . eventho i realised that nothing's better gonna happen no matter how long i wait ! i shouldn'thave fall for him deeply and truly cause now i keep on bleeding and missing because of you ! oh god , please give me all the strength for me to face all this challenges in life . i should have known D: missing you badly !

2010-05-26T16:03:00.003+08:00

~ letting go does not mean that i'm weak but it means that i love you strong enough to let you go . yes , maybe i'm still having a hard time as always but this time is different i'm determine to move on and forget about him . like finally , i'm able to be smiling like always ! i know i wanna move but still i have to take steps by steps . and bestf yknw why i ain't accepting him now cause i don't wanna make the wrong move , so i'll be taking steps by steps aites . and bestf he has a name okay . please lah jangan panggil dier abang sentosa D: back to just now . like hafizzudin said we'll always stay as close friends :D i feel so happy , proud and relieved . like finally i have one lesser burden off my shoulder . so happy manzzz ! wish me luck readers in moving on . i know bestf will :D and thank you to all my friends that have always been there for me each time i'm thinking of hafizzudin . especially bestf , firzanah and twin . love you guys loads people . now i'm all excited for Pulau Tioman's trip as i'll be getting the chance to spent time with my dearest twin ! omg , i'll also be able to spent time with all my bbygirls ! even amira is gg . omg , excited nyeerr ! let's do the countdown babygirls plus munir plus azriq plus siaper siaper lah yang pergi !

21 more days to having fun @ Pulau Tioman with my ODAC mates {!}

2010-05-24T18:27:00.002+08:00

~ still having a hard time but things would change i hope . thanks to both my bbygirls , iki and wanie , for trying to cheer me up . no worries sweetheart , i'm still trying and i won't stop but for now seriously love is so overdue for me . i'll love and wait for only one . no worries babygirls :D

My eyes could see you

My heart could feel you

My breathe could sense you

I knew i loved you

Even before i met you

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-05-22T10:37:00.006+08:00

~ people been saying "stay strong ." "i know you can do this" "just take it like he were never even yours" "just hate him if you have to" "get over him , fafa" that's not what i want . cause there's no way i can do whatever you've guys said . nothing will helped me . nothing !

i miss you v v much boy D:

broken heartedness
all this emptyness
cause the difference is
between us won't improve
i'm trying to find a way
to bring back yesterday
love meant everything to me
we been through much i don"t want us to end right here
i can"t stand the thought of watching us disappear
i put my all my heart my soul, my everything
into us i just can't seem so life is big
got me tripping cause i'm in this crazyness
should we leave it? but i'm caught up in ur mess
but we drifted from where we used to be
wish i could let go,
but i can't seem to get over you
just a single touch between the two of us
used to mean so much cause we were all alone
but reality is here and it's very clear
i should let things go with you
boy i question how something so perfect
could seem to just fade away
no , i won't give up on you
that's why i will love you forever
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-05-21T12:36:00.007+08:00

~ like i've said before i'll defenietly miss you even more now . much misses D:

Sometimes you think you're over a guy

But when you see him just smile at you

Suddenly you realised . . .
You're just pretending to be over him .

Just to ease the pain of knowing that he'll never be yours again

I've learned that goodbyes always hurt

Pictures never replace what have been there

Memories good or bad will always bring us tears

and words can never be replaced these feelings i have for you ♥♥

2010-05-20T15:55:00.010+08:00

~ i should have known that nothing would last between us . idk , why i'm crying but i'm just gonna miss the few days we've been spending together . we had fun , that's for sure . i swear i dk why i'm crying over something that i've knew it's impossible . maybe those time together gave me hope but now i know it's just simply nothing . after all this it's gonna be even harder to forget about you and move on . still , i wanna thank you for giving me the greatest time of my life . i do still love you . it's fxcking hard and only bestf knows how i feel . i really idk what to do now . i swear i'm v v lost . i don't know if i'm suppose to be mad , sad , dissapointed , pist or even angry cause from the start i should have known this won't bring us anywhere . come on fafa , you shouldn't be crying at all ! like bestf said be thankful with what we have D: fxck , why do i have to fall deeply in love and i keep bleeding once i get up ! i guess i'll be out of love for a long time now . waiting is tiring and still i'm doing it after knowing that . hmmmm , maybe we're just now meant to be furthermore i've had my chance and time with you for 6 long months yet i screwed it ! serve me right . readers do treasure your lovers if you don't wanna live with regrets cause once they leave us they will never be a turning back point . and even if you get , you wouldn't be as lucky as before . gosh , seriously this is sp fxcking hard for me ! i dearly love him and all but it's no use hanging on to it if i keep falling . and i want you to know that i love you so , i love you enough to let you go . i should be happy if you are but the question is why am i not happy when i saw you smile and laugh ? why ain't i happy when i got to know that you are getting back the love you've been missing from ? why am i just not smiling ?! why ?! i've loved you baby but it just isn't enough to keep us together for a long time , huh . i guess we're just not meant to be . i'll be trying eventhough it's hard and that is moving on D:

Take a look at what you have .
Think of all the things you did to get it .
Remeber it takes only one second to lose .
Sometimes what you want isn't always what you get .
But in the end what you get is so much better than what you wanted .
The most cruel thing a person can do is to forbid someone from saying "I love you" to one she loves yet it is more cruel to force one to say "I love you not" to the one she loves most .
To love it to risk being loved in return .
To try is to risk failure , but risk must be taken as the greatest hazzards in life is to risk nothing .
The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to .
It hurts to see your lost love to walk past you with another girl ;
It's even worse to know you made a mistake in letting him go .
I was finally getting over you and actually believing i didn't need you .
I was finally accepting the fact that you had another girl .
Then you smiled at me and ruined it all .
Don't ever give up if you still want to try .
Don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry .
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know .
Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go .
How i can i forget you when you're always on my mind ?
How can i not want you when you're all i want inside ?
How can i let you go when i can't see us apart ?
How can i not love you when you control my heart ?
I thought by telling myself and everyone else that i hated you ,
That sooner or later i came to believe it
But now i realised that it makes me want you even more
Letting go of someone dear to you is hard ,
But holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the sameis much harder
Giving up doesn not mean you are weak .
It only means that you are strong enough to let go .
One day you'll love me the way i loved you .
One day you'll think of me the way i though of you .
One day you'll cry for me just like the way i cried for you .
One day you'll want me just like the way i wanted you .
You hurt me even more than i deserve , how can you be so cruel ?
I loved you more than i should have to , why am i such a fool ?
Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are righ next to you .
But it's worst when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realised you can't live without them .
Days continue to pass , stars continue to shine .
Why do i have tears in my eyes today when he's no longer mine
Someday we'll know if love xan move mountain .
Someday we'll know why is the sky blue .
Someday we'll know why i wasn't meant for you .
But i need you to know today that i love you and i miss you ♥♥

2010-05-17T19:14:00.004+08:00

~ getting my results tomorrow . me and fizzo fxcking worried right now . standard kiter dua kan budak pandai sangat . hahaha :D congrats tu hafizzudin for getting first in class for F&N . happy sungguh dia . hari ini saya happy , hari-hari saya happy ! haha :D don't ask me why . please cause fafa's kinda crazy today . so today was abit down and cranky , idk why i feel bad about myself and bestf , but thanks fir , fizzo and hafizzudin for hearing me out . thanks for making me feel better :D to dearest bbygirl , i didn't mind you didn't salam me lah . tak payah explain :D and bbygirl , cheer up okay ! i'm always here for you and you know that adeq . text me whenever you feel like to (: i'll always be there to hear you out . stay happy aites bbygirl . and i love you wanie ♥ . and bestf i'm sorry i doubt after knowing you for so long . sorry and iloveyou bestf ♥

~ ku mencintaimu lebih dari apa pun meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku {♥♥♥}

2010-05-15T11:05:00.004+08:00

~ idk why but i truly miss you badly now . i'm sorry . now my mind is racing . i'm just wondering if you were sincere D: urghhhh , nevermind about that . cheer up fafa ! must stay happy ! come on smile :D well , i'm hoping for some miracled to happen between me and him . i hope i can get a new chapter in my fairytales story book . yes , not all fairytales have a happy ending but every fairytales story always gives one another a second chance . everything about you is still fresh in my head . the pictures of you and me . i kept everything about you closely in my heart . i know you're having a hard time forgetting about her but i'm willing to wait and yknw that . monday's gonna be akward for us but jyeaah we still have to face each other . how i wish i can tell you how much i miss you everyday i see you . hmph . . gosh , whatever it is i really hope you'll be happy . cause if you are than i shall be happy for you too . you mean alot to me and you gave me the greatest impact in my life . you also made me changed to what i am now . and i truly thank you for that . i truly miss you alot ! and i miss those moments we shared together . i hope it can repeat and make it into a new chapter . and let us be happy just like we did before .

iloveyouvvmuch ♥♥♥

2010-05-14T21:33:00.004+08:00

~ 14th April . i think i'll never forget this day as i know , you know and we know that we had the great time together . it started off with our msn conversation and it's something that we hoped it would last even longer . i know i hoped for to last even longer than what we had just talked about . i was smiling widely while chatting with you . laughing and thinking about those days . i didn't expect that you would miss those days we spent together . seriously , you were really really sweet just now ^^ i really had the time of my life ! i don't know about you but for me yes i had the greatest time ever ! eventhough it was just for a short period i really treasure and thank you for sparing that time just to share it with me . i don't know if you were sincere spending your time with me but i really hope you are :D i really hope this is not the last time we can spend time together . like you said we should treasure this time together alot . i remember whatever you said just now . "fafa tak boleh sad . fafa kene stay happy always . come on fafa , stay happy ." idk why but your words always make my day . thank you again for spending your time with me . ly !

~ now i miss you even more ♥

2010-05-13T11:06:00.004+08:00

~ Good Morning ! finally can have a long day rest today as there's no paper today . just finished watching The Curse of Niyang Rapik . you guys should watch it manzzz ! it's and awesome movie . it's not really that scary but jyeaah the sound effects do make make me go damn ! ahaaa :D but i'm still trying to find the movie called Stoning of Soraya M . there's only the tariler at youtube . i really wanna watch that movie badly ! mana boleh cari itu movie uh ? idk why aftere typing that i've realised that i miss my dearest girlf v v much ! Hanis Izyani . i want you back girlf ! let's try to get back together aites :D i know you know , we're still trying ! :D i miss those times we went out together . thos jokes we crack when we're down and especially the times when i spent with your during OSIM Triathlon . fuuuh ! itu plaing gerek :D nevermind , kiter masih mencuba :D see you tmrw girlf ! and my bbygirl , stay strong wanie . hope he'll see your love one day . i know , you know that we understand each other . be happy always aites and

Get Well Soon Hafizzudin ♥

2010-05-12T15:15:00.007+08:00

i don't know but i feel today i had a great fun with bestf , fizzo , hafizzudin and irsyad . today seems different with them . it seems like today we laughed and joke around together . cute babied around us and guess what ?! the babies pun entertain us :D cute kan ?! ahaaaa . i feel super duper good today ! maybe because he was around or maybe because best was by my side . i feel like i wanted those hours just now to last even longer infact i don't even want it to end . sometimes guys opinion do help us , girls , alot . like what happened just now . right bestf ? let's just hope nothing bad's gonna happen . let's pray hard bestf . v v hard ! then walked back home . the journey didn't seem far tho maybe i talked alot with hafizzudin and irsyad . and we talked about how cruel human can be ! i so wanna watch the movie that hafizzudin was talking about ! Stoning of Soraya M ! gosh , her man was really mean fucking jerk ! hell manzzz ! why must i get so emotional . that's all for today .
get well soon hafizzudin ♥

2010-05-11T18:52:00.002+08:00

had maths class and heed home straight . bestf kene jaga baby kawan dier . reached home text irsyad ask if he's free to study today . then ask hafizzudin along . waited for him for quiet a long time under his void deck . dah lah lambat lagy boleh bilang "ouhhh , aku duduk duduk dulu then aku baring pulak" wth ?! then we walked to CP to meet irsyad , iki and my dearest minah rep yang paling fanatik ! ahahaa (: inside joke wanie ^^ studied at library but kena halau so decided to blajar at Anchorvale CC . wasn't really as fun as we expected eventho there was cute young kids having birthday party . something just didn't turn out right . hafizzudin was down but it's now because of korang aites :D no worries minah rep , iki and irsyad . then heed back home after feeling quiet akward . and otw back home talked alot with hafizzudin :D and shitzzz , i owe him one bottle of drink ! shouldn't have offered siaa . hahaa ^^ nevermind besok boleh belikan :D andand besok i wanna see who salam who dulu . let's see uh hafizzudin ! ahaha :D tadi jeek dah terluper lagy nk tunggu besok ! confirm dah luper siaaa . plus you're still as degil as ever ! betul betul tk nk pergi doctor ! haiyooo . mcm maner nak baik . till here then .

thanks for the time minah rep , hafizzudin , iki and irsyad ! ♥♥

2010-05-10T14:49:00.009+08:00

so screwed both my maths and geography paper . i didn't even realised that i slept during geography paper . mangkuk , confirm fafa fail siaaa ! ahaaaa (: aites , yterday clebrated mother's day ~ had fun with my family and Marina Square's Pizza Hut outlet . i can see that ibu's really happy cause all her four child was around when i say that it means my abang was also there too ! laughed and talked alot . i liked this kind of occasion cause it's like we'll be having confession talk gitu ^^ then clebrate at rumah nenek pulak (: best ! that's all for mother's day . next week would be kakak's birthday and i got no idea what to buy for her siaa ! nevermind and we'll go out for makan again :D ehk seronoknya bersama keluarga . hahaa (: wth sia fafa ! so basically he's not feeling any better suroh pergi doctor he patah balik , not suprised cause that's how he is . betul tak irsyad ?

get well soon hafizzudin ♥

2010-05-08T13:06:00.004+08:00

~ had maths class just now . was fifteen minutes late ): lucky didn't missed out on anything . we only did maths paper one . and and bestf and fir came 30 minutes before the class end . siang kan ?! ahaaa (: after class heeded off to RP's macdonald to revise with bestf and fir . instead we laughed alot more then revising . gosh , i really hoep nothing go wrong on monday D: pray hard bestf and fir plus me too ! there's only one thing on my mind now ! HIM D': i'm currently listening to so called our song , Kembali Pulang . haiyooo , hopefully he's feeling better right now . get well soon hafizzudin ♥

2010-05-07T13:19:00.005+08:00

i've posted this at my facebook and i've deleted it .

"sometimes in life you can hate someone for a short period of time over the slightest thing they do , even your bestf" idk , why but i just feel down . i feel v v shitty when i think about it ! fxck life ! urghhh , that it about . if you realised i've been keeping my post short . haha ^^ wanna know why , so that it'll keep blogging . now , i'm just a lil bit worried . i'm so worried for him . i mean i know i'm nothing to him anymore but it's not wrong to worry for someone right ? he's been sick for the past few day D: i thought it won't give me any impact for me . but seeing him like that kills me manzz ! i feel like forcing him to see the doctor and make sure he takes his medicine but i know i can't do that . . i really hope he'll get better soon and stop coughing .
get well soon hafizzudin ♥

2010-05-06T14:52:00.006+08:00

"I will love you forever !
I will like you for walways !
Forever my girlf you will be !

Ilysvm FAZURA !"

how i wish you are still the guy who sent me that text message D:

i swear i can never forget you and no one can ever replace you baby !
i've said this before and i'm gonna say this again .
Hafizzudin Bin Nizam Mudin , you're the love of my life !

and please get well soon . see the doctor if you need to . Take care {L}

ouhhh ya , today is Sixth May . how i wish i could wish you Happy Thirteen Monthsary !

time flies really fast that's why i miss you alot easily . but no matter how fast time flies

i would still always love you like i always do ! cause it will never fade .

2010-05-05T20:37:00.003+08:00

see that pretty lil thing up there . i miss her like fxcking alot alot siaa ! hope to meet her soon . we don't even have the time to study together siaa . sorry babe . must jumpaa ceppat ! miss ya ): tu lah , siaper suruh quit madrasah ?! hahaha (: by the way , i miss my madrasah cliques too !afrina , sitiQ , badriah , nuraini and mardhiah . jumpaa korang this sunday aites ?! i guess i'm coming uh . hehe ^^

2010-04-09T20:13:00.004+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

I know it's been long since i last update my blog and guess what ?! i'm changing the way i'm blogging ! i ain't posting any long post anymore . i shall only post what i want to be know ! and here i am , updating my blog ! here we go . . .

seriously i swear only god knows how much i miss being with him and deep down how much i still love him . but i believe if we're meant to be then we shall be together again one day . but for now i just have to bare with it . yes , i'm hurt and i can't take it but i can't do anything but just wait and bare with ): i believe that sometimes the best way to hold on to something is to let go . i'm letting you go cause i want you to be happy . yet at the same time i need you back D: ummm , it's okay . just so yknow i still love you alot !

BYE {!}

2010-03-02T20:28:00.004+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

i know i know , it's been long since i last update my blog . i've been lazy . and today i feel like updating just because i really have to let it out ! today my class had a bio trip to the BodyWorlds .

and that is the first ever class trip without him by my side D: i was crying badly in the bus thinking about those days when i was with him . i really thought i've move on but i guess i'm wrong . idk why it's just hard for me to forget about him . i tried really hard to forget him but it just can't seem to happen . i know he's with someone else already but there's no rule saying that you can't love someone even if he/she is someone else already right ? but one thing's for sure is you have to let them go no matter what or how hard it is ! it's not for us to decide how long we'll go but it's for us to work things out and make sure we're happy together . so why bother stay together when it's only one sided love right ? all i can say is i hope you're happy with . NO ! i know you are way happier with her . i'm still working things out to forget about you but the more i'm trying the more i'll remember about you . i know the LOVE we shared was more than just words ! but someway somehow it faded for you . as long as i remembered the love i had for you has not and never will fade . well for now all i can do is wish you all the best for yor "N" levels and last long with the girl who you loved most ! ~imyvvm {!}

besides that sadness , i had the greatest time with my bestfriend today . she was there for me while i was in the bus crying . she wipped my tears and gave me her warmth hug ! it's been long since i had a great time with my bestf ! thank you bestf . it really felt like 2 years ago . and i really really really love it ! indeed you're the greatest , bestest and sweetest bestfriend anyone could ask for ! ~loveyouvmuch {!}

well i guess that's all for today . hopefully i'll be hardworking enough to update my blog more often aites ?! take care all awesome readers !

BYE{lovees}

2010-02-13T09:11:00.005+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

to those cyber friends i know i know , fafa dah lamer tk update ! sorry loor . ahaaaa :D siaper yang teraser tu dier lah yang paling rabaak nyerr . ahaa . kay dah enough enough .

yesterday was CNY celebration ! ummmm , something was missing ?! and after awhile i managed to figure it out ! Ms Zu wasn't there like at all ! she's not even in Singapore D: i believe my whole batch of friends miss her like freaking much ! gosh , enough enough about Ms Zu . still at the same time i was v v sad . i still remember the same day last year , i was with him having so much during the concert but this year it was just him and his girlf D: haizzz , i know it's so wrong for me to think about him especially when he already has a girlf but i just can't stop thinking about him ! urrgghhh ! nevermind . in any ways yesterday concert was still boring and not fun at all ! some people just gotta realised that just at times something you don't have the rights or more likely you don't deserve to touch ! skipped !

welll , the concert was boring giler nak mampos ! not even a single thing sia i understand ! and i believe same goes to all other malay students ! the only event i like was the mondern dance ! gerek gilerr . dearest twin was dancing . in fact i went to school on that day just to see her dance !thumbs up twin :D good job ! after the dance ends , me and hanis decided to cabot ! ahaaa . we went all over the school . mcm budak badol siaa ! ahaaa . then went back to hall but just stood at the back ! and guess who i met ?! i met CITCIT lah kan ! misss her like fucking much loor ! ahaaa :D huged her so tight ! ahaaaa . then yada yada . called bestf ! teman her go toilet then yada yada yada . concert ends back to class . yada yada . heeded home straight .

reached home , clean up , get changed off i go out . meet kakak at Bugis . and start SHOPPING :D bought myself a new bag @BHG . and trying so shop for clothes but none of it i want . wanted to go suntec city's cotton on cause it freaking big , but we're too tired to carry on walking D: after makanmakan and all we all heed home ! sumpaah ehk MRT packed giler nak mampos ! tk dapat duduk siaaa . then decided to stop at Hougang as ibu wants to trim her eyebrow . then bought food for abang . yada yada , finally home sweet home !

reached home washed up and off to bed ! aha , long day isn't it ! v v tired loor . and and i guess i'll blog till here . take care all awesome readers .

BYE {lovee}

2010-02-06T09:42:00.005+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

i know know , it's been long since i last update my blog . gosh , something big is going thru my head right now . well what do you expect ?! it's SIX of FEBRUARY today ! something i should never think of ! hmph D: nevermind , let's get to brigh side . actually there's nothing bright ! especially when you got to know that someone who means alot to you pulled out on something which means alot to us ! so i guess that's the end of EverydayHeroes ! but jyeaah we're still close friends :) things been rough in school . but life goes on and on till you get bored ! gosh enough about school . let's get to part where i had fun !

last night i had Geisha's Casts and Crews gathering ! it was freaking fun ! had greatest fun ever ! lepas juga lah kan rindu kan dorang ! especially to our dearest make-up artists ashley ? or wait or is it esther ?! ahaaa . inside joke lah kaan ! so left house early to meet my friend . then met amira at Kovan Mrt station and off we go to Dhoby Gahaut to search for the Sakura Intl Buffet . and after a few walks around , finally we found that place . then waited for nurin at the one of the mrt exit and insted of waiting for her , we met cik atin , kak dalifah , kak hafisah , kak jannah and kak nani ! gosh , missed them alot ! hugs and kisses was around . then we heed to the restaurant first . waited for the restthen we fetched nurin and off we go back . and yada yada yada . when the sun goes down the fun was getting even better ! jokes and laughter was all around . and food was all over and unfortunately helzie tk tau minum ! haha . tumpah sia milo kene my baju but worts to amira . kesian . ever since then kak akhmar tk habes-habes kacau helzie ! ahaaa .

then came adib , ashley and kak yaya ! gosh , adib came with his tempang leg !ahaaa , but adib get well soon . and as always fight and more fights with ASHLEY ! ahaaaa . miss him the most sia ! WAK LU ! ahaaaa . then and again off to the buffet and take food again . can you imagine from 6.30 all the way to 9.30 we feed ourselves with different kind of food . all kind of from sushi to to dessert ! me and nurin stuffed in most of the dessert and ice cream ! ahaaaa :D then back to talking and laughing to a point that we can't stuff in anymore food except for kak akhmar ! ahaaa :D '

from eating to laughing then it's time for the honorium from them for us . thank you so much Theatre KAMI . it's not big but it's the thoughts that count ! the here comes again the stupid laughter and stuff ! and then to video taking ! will be put up at FaceBook ! pictures will be put up there too . so catch it if you want to . then yada yada left for home at 10 . hugs and kisses like always ! gonna miss them again ! do keep in touch ayte ?! love you guys {!}

then i don't think i have to update what i do once i reached home and all right ?! obviously i changed , cleaned up and off to bed ! ahaaa :D

alright like i mention just now . today's SIX of FEBRUARY . "HAPPY TENTH MONTHSARY BABYLOVEES" how i wish i can still say that to you like right now ! but i know i can never say that to you ever again ! all can say is today marks the 108 days eversince we're been seperated ! i gotta i still can't move on and forget about you . and i do miss you alot ! ouhhh gosh ! ummm , well i guess i shall just update till here . till the next post ayte readers ! take care all awesome readers .

BYE {lovess}

2010-01-24T20:31:00.003+08:00

Hello Earthling {!}

Not feeling good today . my flu's back and it's freakingly pisting me off ! i've ate my medicine alr but it made no difference ! in fact it's getting even worst ! haiyooo . get well soon fafa ! if not i'll miss ODAC training on Tuesday . and i don't wanna miss it D: kay enough about all this illness . ahaaa . i'm v v happy cause yterday i chatted with clone baby . NurFarahCitra ! meeting her soon , like yessa ! and chat with her about my problems and all . thanks for listening clone . missing you alot ! plus plus i miss those days when we spent most of the time tgether which was during the twinning programme . gosh , i miss those time ! and clone thanks for listening to all the problems about me having a hard time moving on and all . well i guess i say it here as he no longer reads my blog but i shall not mention his name just in case the rest sees it . dah enough enough . talking about it will be just even harder to forget about him !

currently chatting with my dearest arman ! Arman Ramlan ! only god knows how much i miss him siaa . it's been countless of days since i last see him . i miss his hugs ! that teddy bear of mine . ouhh , gosh . i was at his FB and i saw this old photos of ours . god , i miss that day ! photoshoot @ Fort Canning . shall we go out as foursome again some time ? ahaaa . i guess i shall see you during DanceWorks . and and besides arman , i'm missing my GEISHA's Family ! Ashley ! wak lu :)) you know i know amira's know ! gosh , hoping to see you guys on 16 April for 3 Madu :D i'll defenietly be there ! like finally dapat jumper ! i miss gng for practice and having big fights with Ashley . hahaha :D and i miss the last day of the show the most . hugs and kisses ! tears dropping especially when we got to know that abg bobot won't be acting anymore and ms zu's leaving to Perth D: i miss ms zuhaidah ! gosh , enough lah saddy mady ni sumer !

by the way , pictures up at FaceBook . loving and admiring it padahal gambar tk sebraper siaa . ahaaa . but i love abang's photos and edits ! i'm trying to get pictured from abang and edit it my way . haha :D gosh i have so many things to say but i guess it's better left unsaid cause i'm afraid it's gonna effect the others ! so i guess i shall say what i have to say some other time . anyone offended i belive no should cause this is my blog and it's my say . alright i guess i shall blog till here . take care all awesome readers !

BYE {lovelove}

2010-01-23T21:27:00.003+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

here i am back again , updating blog . gosh my body still aches from my ODAC training . hope it'll get better by the next training which will be tuesday . okay okay , enough about the pain and all . school been great with all HOTSTUFF gng on . EverydayHeroes know what i mean :D ahaaa . as for studies , still kinda struggling but i guess i'll be able to cope it in time to come . hopefully . i have to ! 'N' levels dooh this year ! i wanna take my 'O' level and go NAFA . i wanna take up performing arts . abang agree so know i have to work hard if i wanna achieve what i want ! wish me luck cyber friends . i'll take advise from shafiq . syed and of course i'll keep the promise i made to ayie . which is i'll complete my 'N' levels . ahaaa . okay okay , dah i guess enough about school . stress and friends ! alright today my whole family went to Fort Canning Park as we had a wedding invation ! it's the greatest ! wasnna know why ?! cause abang was theree ! camwhored habes lah ngan abang sampai fought with kakak . cutee siaa :D ahaaa . pictures will be up at Facebook soon . waiting for abang to upload it ! ahaaa . so at Fort Canning just me and abang plus kakak took alotalot of pictures dah mcm orang tk tau maluu like thaat . ahaaa :D especially abang . mcm model siaa . he taught me how to take pictures from different kind of angle , thanks aye ?! ahaaa . abang , abang if only we own DSLR kan bang ?! btol btol btol . abang ! buy DSLR laahh , pleaseee D: maen pakser ehk fafa . . jauh sia fafa melencong . kay back to the jemputan . the food was great and the place was f-ing nice ! i looovvveeee brownie ! i had most of the brownie ! ahaaaa . perangai gemok sia fafa . memang gemok puun ! after all that long jemputan we heed off to changi airport as abang had to work . too bad D: kalau tak confirm we camwhored like nobody's business seyh ! hahaa . . then we heed . and then yada yada yada .

now here i am updating blog and currently chatting with Nadiah . lamer sia tk nampak tu nadiah ! ahhaa . missed her alot seyh . last time i met her was secondary one zaman dier ngah suker one of the HAFIZ ! those hafizes should know her like hell alot ! haha :D kekek sia zaman tuu . ngah CIP she met us and thought the other hafiz was the other hafiz . ahaa , tak faham kan ?! then forget it , tk payah nk fahamkan ! ahaaa :D gosh , i'm tired alr . update again some other time aye ?! take care all awesome people !

BYE {lovees}

2010-01-19T21:18:00.004+08:00

Hello Earthling{!}

OMG ! ! i'm f-ing tired today ! i had ODAC training today . only my ODAC mates know how much i suffered just now ! first of all i had to run like a whole of 2 rounds outside school which i hated the most . but suprisingly i managed to complete my run within time ! and i'm proud . who says fat people can't run ! huh ?! ahaaa . after then we had another form exercise and that part i do hate it and i failed to complete it . that thing was f-ing heavy siaa ! and i'm not up to it ! ahaaa :D then here come the dun part . we played captains ball ! gerek gileer ! and fafa played okay ! and my team played well ! good job blue team ! now i can't wait for my next health and wellness plus my ODAC training . ouhh ya and suraidy you owe munir a meal ya ! hahahaa :D tu lah maen kasar / ganas lagi ! i can't wait for thursday ! and and please check our EcerydayHeroes's blog for our funny videos aye ?! i guess i'm too tired to updatemore now . till here aye ?! take care all awesome people !

BYE {lovelove}

2010-01-15T15:39:00.006+08:00

Hello Earthlings{!}

gosh , i know it's been fucking loong since i last updated my blog siaa ! ahaaa . laptop spoiled uh ! as for now also won't get to update that often like i used to do ! like finally i can type it here . WELCOME 2010 ! hahah . lambat siaa fafa ! ((: well , things are different now . back to learning how i should move on . not to give up in love but how to forget a lover . it's been hard but when sch's reopen i was f-king happy that we are all still close . maybe not as close as ever but jyeaah close enough to joke around and laugh together ! as far as i'm concern school has been fun ! until the N levels fever came in ! woow ! tough year , this year ! and oh ya , please ignore all my olf post cause i believe it's only for me to keep . sometimes it's good to rmbr you hard time with someone else . okay back about school . no EverydayHeroes been busy with something for valentines (: hehe ^^ secret uh ! and also been spending alot alot of time with bestfriend ! but the bestest part would be having a splendid and crazy time with firzanah and hanis ! but still i'm missing the old days ! hmph . . what to do , move on lorr ! i hope i'll get over it soon (: andand this year i'll be turning 16 ! ahhaaa . it seems so fast that sec 3 life is over ! i guess i've learn alot in sec 3 be it educationally or jyeaah some other stuff ! and this year's class it's kinda okay and stilll it's fun ! teachers ?! consider myself lucky for not having ms lee for 2 subjects . if not ! as for CCA , me , hanis and fir are the Publisher Directors . cool kan ?! big deal fafa ! haha . kay dah enough about school and all . since it's been long since i update i guess i'm lazy to update longlong ! ahaa . so here's the thing , list for what i want in 2010 ;

get good grades
be someone more usefull
love my life
live my dream
and of course a year where i can be with all my friends {especially during N levels prep}

please let me do everything in a easier way ! maybe a little bit of toughness will do but not too tough for me to handle , ya . ahaaa . andand as i promise firzanah , i'll update EverydayHeroes blog soon aye ?! hehe . don't get angry ya ! ermmm , i guess i'll update till here aye ?! && twin now you can learn about my life easily right ! haha . take care all awesome people !

BYE {hearts}

i was totally wrong about my babygirls . ly ♥

2009-10-01T17:18:00.008+08:00

first of all . i wanna wish both my Ayah and His Twin , my uncle , A V V Happy Birthday ! Idk how old you guys now are cause i forget . ahaaa . sorry though . i'm actually glad that i own this two bestest people in my life cause without them the world is so blend , no laughter , smile and stupid joke . eventhough now they have their own family , they're still close and can't be seperate at all ! sungguh the kembar punyer case uh ! ahaaa . to my dearest ayah , i know that i've dissapoint you upmteen of times and yet there's no changes in me and all . i promise you that i'll study real hard i'll work to strive for my own achievement . i wanna grow up as someone people can count on and i wanna grow up to make you and ibu proud . i'll also take care of myself so that you won't get worried . iloveyousovvmuch ayah ! To both ayah and uncle , keep on being giler and always have your stupid jokes aye ?! i love you both !

Hello Earthlings {!}

now i'll do a proper blogging . few bithdays will be coming up . like our dearest irsyad's birthday tomorrow . which is me and baby are fucking lost what to buy for him siaa . kay nevermind that one we can decided tmrw . currently baby's out with his friends , jalan rayer . hmph . . kinda worried but jyeaah . can't control him yknow ! nevermind . next topic . i'm actually kinda relieved with what happened in school today . i was totally wrong when i thought i've lost my dearest bestf ! i thought she never needed me anymore . but i was wrong . just now in school sat with bestf and she poured it all out . gosh , i'm sorry i had bad thoughts about you bestf ! i'm truly truly sorry . plus i wanna thank amni for cheering me up yterday ! that shorty always have way to make this teletubies smile ! ahaa . amni , i know you know baby ! kay dah dah enough .

today school was fucking gerek and noisy ! had the gretest time with firzanah , apple , orange , bestf , amira and amni ! laughed alot lah siaaa today ! orange did this movement but it was super duper wrong siaa . gosh , i was freaking tired of laughing seyh just now ! i'm actually glad that i've come to realised that none of them has lefy me actually . it was just my stupid imagination . all this while what baby predicted was right . lucky i had baby by my side all this while . thank you so much baby ! kay i think i don't wish to elaborate more about school as school today was the best among all the other days ! thanks aye dearest classmates ! love you all uh ! next time we do somemore kay ?! ahaaa .

currently chatting with firzanah . like i said things are getting better . she's back to treating me normal . hehe . i'm happy seyh ! and she shared problems with me . gosh , i'm truly sorry babe that all this while i wasn't there for you as i thought you guys no longer need me . i'm v v sorry friends . i promised you girls that the next time i don't feel there's problem between us i'll talk to you guys aye ?! you girls mean alot to me ! i love each and everyone of you girls v v much ! keep this friendship long aye ?!

kay right now idk why but i'm worried about baby D: baby told me to call him as and when i want and do but i don't want to disturb him and his friends . gosh i hope baby's keeping his promise . i don't want anything to go wrong tomorrow uh . hmph . . i'm wondering what he's doing right now . who is he with right now . gosh it's going round up in my head ! gaaaahhhh ! this is hard maanzzz ! can i call him like right now ?! urrgghhhh ! baby , where are you ?! i know i shouldn't be worried but i just can't . cool down fafa . chill . he's alright . he's holding on to his promises . no worries . cheer up D:

nevermind i guess i'll update till here jeek lah . got no mood to update uh . i'll update again soon alright . btw , monthsary's in 5 more days . i hope things will change between us . seriously , i'll update till here only . Take Care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

why must all this happen to me ?! still you girls been the bestest especially bestf D:

2009-09-29T17:27:00.009+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

it's been long since i last update . so here i am updating blog . life been hard for me for the past few weeks . it's been v v hard ! even now i hate my life so much . sometimes i just wish to be alone and just handle everything by myself but i know i can never be able to do all that . i knew that i needed someone by me . and indeed i found myself few people i could turn to . like baby , bestf and firzanah . but now things has change . i really do feel like i'm no longer needed . so friends don't ever blame me if i don't mix with you guys anymore . i feel so left out each time i'm with you guys . infact i feel like i'm loosing bestf slowly . but it's okay , i can see that she's happy with what she has now . i guess she feel complete with or without me . but frankly speaking , i miss you truck loads bestf ! as for firzanah . like usual i guess we can only be close in cyber world . and i'm still lucky that at least i could still be close with you . maybe not physically but i know we're close mentally . besides bestf and baby , you know me best too friend . friends , we've been through alot togther and maybe too much . no worries , i'll move on and treat you guys the same .

things been hard enough between my friends and added to it things been worst between me and baby . hmph . . sometimes i'm confused with myself . sometimes i hate myself for loving him too much . but one thing's for sure i've never regret loving him too much ! so i guess this piece is specially for him .

dearest , i know we've been through alot infact too much together . i've never wanna let you go . i can't even bare to let you go baby ! it's too hard . yes , maybe what happen recently hurt me so v v much but i've never hated you . i swear ! maybe a little uh . i hated you for not trusting me but after doing some soul searching with myself i've realised that i got no one to blame but myself ! i know whatever you've done for me is the best for me and for us . i knew what you didn't like yet i keep doing it and keep hurting you . i knew that someday this will end for good . but didn't i expect for it to end too soon ! i was fucking sad when it was ended yesterday . i can't even go to sleep . i cried too much till there's no tears left for me to shed ! i suffered real much last night . things been great but why only yterday ?! why did it has to end ?! weren't we suppose to start afresh after the biggest fight we had ?! weren't we suppose to be put everything behind ?! what happen ?! must it really end ?! huh ?! do you have any idea how much i loved you ! and you were wrong about me . my feelings towards you has never change ! do you know that ?! do you know how much you mean to me ?! the last msg you gave me was the sweetest thing you've ever said besides what you said during the fight . i was lost of words what to reply . i still rmbr each and every word you sent to me . hmph . . maybe we're fated to be just friends huh ? even after waiting for you for nearly 2 years and finally got you but too bad it doesn't last long . like you said it's been 5months 23days we've been togther and i had and awesome time with you ! i know i've hurt you but i believe breaking up is not the only solution to our problems . i bet there's other way out .

because of that , that's why i decided to talk to you during school hours just now . eventhough when i first came i didn't hope to meet you but damn it you were the first person i met when i stepped into the hall . just one glance and straight away i look away ! i wasn't ready to meet you at that point of time ! seriously D: in the hall we sat further apart but i just couldn't get my eyes off you . i thought i can never see you smile again . but i managed to caught you smiling and laughing when you were talking to fizzo and wee kiat . i felt relieved but at the same time i had a bad thought . i told myself "even after we broke up yterday he could still smile and laugh . maybe he no longer needs me . and i guess he has moved on ." but i was thinking will i be able to move on as fast as he could ?! at that moment i was lost and confused D: but yet i stick to my decision which was i still wanna talk to him and clear things out face2face with him . we didn't talk for the whole assembly . and i managed to brace myself and talk to him in class . which was fucking difficult ! but i was having second thought if i should patch up with him as he seems happy moments ago in the hall . after talking for quite some times i decided to ask him "are you really serious about breaking up ?" what he replied was between me and him .

thank god ! he didn't even wanna break up with me . he said last night he was sick so he was abit cranky . i was fucking relieved at that point . and yes we'll start afresh baby ! 6 months coming in about 7 days . i really hope no more fights after this . we're going still together . maybe not as strong for now but you'll never know that we might be stronger in the future ! i'm v v happy that we're still togther baby . i promise you what i've promised you just now aye ?! and babylovees , iloveyousovvmuch ! never ever leave me again dearest ! -ilysvvvm !

wooow ! that's a very very long post for my baby huh ?! don't feel like reading ? just leave aye ?! still i wanna thanks fizzo for always being there for me despite i've been bullying you . thank you so much fizzo ! now i've realised who's my true friends . who'll be there for me when i need them . maybe they're the one who i should call bestfriends . to wawa supergirl , no matter what no one can ever replace you as my bestest bestf ! i'll love you no matter what ! no one can ever understand me the way you did . thank you for everything wawa . ilysvvm ! to all my friends thanks for always being there for me , i'm sorry if i've ever hurt anyone of you i hope you'll forgive me . maybe after this things won't be the same between you guys and me . thank you for everything everyone . i love each and everyone of you ! and still EverydayHeroes and SpeedRacer and the greatest and bestest friends i've ever known ! i love each one of you people! i guess till here i'll blog . Take Care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

things would be different now . yet i do still ly .

2009-09-26T08:51:00.006+08:00

I'M TRULY TRULY SORRY THAT I'VE HURT YOU BADYLY BABY .

I'VE NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU !

I KNOW NOW THING WILL BE DIFFERENT .

I CAN SENSE THAT WE'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO

SMILE AND LAUGH TOGETHER EVER AGAIN .

BUT BABY I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO CHANGE THIS SITUTAION .

CAUSE I DO REALLY LOVE YOU V V MUCH !

& I'M TRULY TRULY SORRY D:

2009-09-22T19:43:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI . DENGAN INI FAFA INGIN MENGAMBIL KESEMPATAN UNTUK MEMOHON MAAF KEPADA SESIAPA YANG TELAH FAFA SAKITI HATINYA .
BAIK YANG SENGAJA ATAU TIDAK !
JADI FAFA HARAP DI BULAN YANG MULIA INI
SEMUA DAPAT MENGAMPUNKAN DOSA-DOSA FAFA YEER ?!
SEGALA MAKAN MINUM FAFA HARAP DIHALALKAN .
LUPAKAN SEGALA PERISTIWA BURUK
DAN MARI KTA MEMBUKA LEMBARAN BARU .
BUANG YANG KERUH DAN AMBIL YANG JERNIH .
SELAMAT HARI RAYA . MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

Hello Earthlings .

it might be too late to post this but at least there's something . hari raya pictures are all in my FaceBook account . too lazy to update it here . if not please visit my kakak's blog for pictures . thank you v v much . as for now won't be doing too much blogging as busy with hari raya and exams are like around the corner . so blog will be a little bit dead . but i hope it won't be too dead uh ! ahaaa :D so wish me luck aye for my exmaminations ! so i guess i'll be blogging till here then . Take Care all awesome readers ! and in those three pictures i look so fucking fat ! gotta listen to abg and kakak {need to loose weight!} ahaaa :D

BYE {!}

bestest people ever ! {baby/twin/bestf/speedracer/EverydayHeroes}

2009-09-17T18:19:00.003+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

here i am updating blog as twin bby insisted me to update it . plus i hate it when my blog is blank ! ahaaa (: so twin bby ! here you go . got your picture someore !

and and i miss dearest twin so v v much ! got to hug her the other day ! it's been long since i last hugged her ! gosh . only god know how much i miss you sayang oi ! plus after FYE we gotta plan when we're going out aye ?! so bestf and twin get cracking sayangs ! i miss the day when we went out just the three of us . banyak bobual sungguh kiter ! macam dah lamer tak jumper gituk ! ahaaa !

skipped ! i don't know why but i don't feel like updating about school cause it'll be the same old boring stories ! ahaaa . but things been great between me and baby plus between me and bestf ! someone who's trying to break us apart ?! mimpi sudah ehk ! bestf and me been through alot together ! so if you're trying to do anything think twice ! stupid you who's trying to break us apart !

and between me and baby , so far no more fight here and there . just that sometimes i got so . . urghhhh ! nevermind . try being in my shoes then some of your girls will understand ! but he've done so much for me so i guess i should do something in return ! he completes me with his love , care and concern ! besided bestf he understand me best ! i love you so v v much babylovees . hafizzudin babylovees fafa uh ! ahaa . yang itu random lah sangat ye !

enough enough ! enough about all that !

currently chatting with baby , taufiq plus SitiQ ! gosh speaking about SitiQ i miss her so v v much plus all my madarsah mates . especially Nabilah , Afrina , Nuraini and SitiQ ! gosh i guess this is for Nabilah .

Nabilah bby , i hope you're facing all your problems with all your strength . you need each other and all ! i know you're strong enough baby ! you're cheerful girl and you'll defenietly help your mum alot . i'll pray for her aye baby ?! please do cheer up sayang ! your madrasah cliques will be there for you ! we all love you v v much baby !

To AFRINA , SITIQ, NABILAH AND NURAINI . babygirls i miss you all v v much ! biler dah start balek must take sweets alot alot uh ! plus can't wait for the jalan raya ! so gonna hug each and everyone of you girls !

alright alright . i guess i've said enough . eventhough it's a short post at least i've update it ! i f-ingly don't know when i'm cutting my hair siaa ! haizz . . nevermind . soon i guess . alright uh ! till here readers . Take Care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

ONE MORE DAY TO MALAM HARI RAYA !

TWO MORE DAY TO ABANG'S 23rd BIRTHDAY !

EIGHTEEN MORE DAYS TO FINAL YEAR EXAMS ! !

NINETEEN MORE DAYS TO OUR SIXTH MONTHSARY !

NINETEEN MORE DAYS TO TWIN BABY'S 15th BIRTHDAY !

you complete me with your love boyf ! ily (:

2009-09-14T17:11:00.003+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

lazy lah to update blog . won't be blogging much i guess for the next few days cause i'll be v v busy ! six more day left to hari raya and abang's birthday ! && three more weeks to my sixth monthsary ! gosh , so many things coming the way ! and i forgot three more weeks to my dearest twin bby's birthday too ! hehe :D alalalar , twin fafa going 15 uh ! alright alright . i'm super duper lazy to update already . actually lazy to type uh ! ahaaa :D dah lah i don't wanna update already ! i wanna chat with babylovees ! take care all awesome readers !

Bye {♥♥}

SIX MORE DAYS TO HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI !

SIX MORE DAYS TO ABANG'S 23rd BIRTHDAY !

TWENTY-ONE MORE DAYS TO SIXTHS MONTHSARY !

TWENTY-ONE MORE DAYS TO TWIN BBY'S 15th BIRTHDAY !

baby , i don't want it to end either . ilysvvm babylovees .

2009-09-11T20:06:00.004+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

couple of birthday wishes to do .

first of all i wanna wish Happy Birthday to my dearest ibu . Thanks for everything ibu . you've always been there for me . you're always there to help me when i'm in trouble . you've been a great wife , mother and girlfriend of mine ! except for the wife part . and lastly semoga Allah murahkan rezeki , panjangkan umur dan sentiasa sihat . ilysvvm dearest ibu !

next 10th September babies ! ahaaa . not really for cik yulika {bestf's mum} Happy Birthday Cik Yulika ! you've been a great friend too . sungguh friendly ! and and i love your mee ayam ! hari raya must masak lagy kay ?! specially for me just like last year ! ahaaa . fafa perangai tak tau malu seyy ! nevermind , still must cook for fafa ! just like my mum semoga Allah murahkan rezeki , panjangkan umur dan sihat sihat selalu !

last but not the least . Happy Birthday Dearest Balqis Baby ! gosh i miss that babygirl of mine ! first of all may all your wishes come true aye baby ?! && last lamer lamer with your dearest ryan ! and baby we better meet up soon with assyura cause i miss two of you fucking much ! and baby ilyssvvvvm !

kay now proper blogging people !

i super duper hate today ! it's the worst day of all . i didn't expect i'll go through all this with baby . i'm truly truly sorry baby D: i really got no choice but i just can't bring myself to do it . it really hurt me so much . i'm sorry cause i know i've hurt so much . i tried everything but still i fail . that shows how much you mean to be baby ! i love you so v v much sayang ! i don't wanna loose you ! that would be the last thing i want in my life ! alright i guess it's enough about this cause we've clear things out and baby understand ! thank you so much baby ! ilysvvvm .

i've just clean my abang's room and it's super duper clean . with help from my dearest adeq ! baek uh adeq ! worth effort ! fafa bobal peyy big tapi keje nyerr buat sikit ! hehe :D plus i chatten with dearest nabilah ! kiter perangai gemok ehk ! ahaaa . gonna miss that girlf of mine ! plus i'm gonna miss afrina , Q and nuraini too ! i'll miss you girls alot ! nanti when madrasah reopen we must take sweet banyak banyak worr ! ahaa . nabilah , i know you know and must tell the other girls aye ?! ahaaa !

gosh ! now i'm freakingly tired . i wanna bath again as later i'm going geylang with ibu and her friend . and obviously i stink after doing all those cleaning ! ahaaa :D so i guess i'll blog till here aye ?! Take Care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

I miss babylovees v v much !

I miss bestf v v much !
I miss twin bby v v much !

I miss EverydayHeroes v v much !
I love you all v v much !

i miss dearest twin , bestf & babylovees v v much }:

2009-09-10T14:47:00.004+08:00

Hello Earthlings {!}

gosh , i'm super duper lazy to update but i'm super duper bored today ! i got nothing to do at all . so here i am updating this blog . as you all can hear my blog songs are all Hari Raya songs . ahaaa . . like bestf said at tagboard , i really really can't wait for hari raya ! countingdown , 10 more days to hari raya and abang's birthday ! it'll be a big day for abang !

& & i can't wait for school to reopen . i'm missing my dearest twin and bestf badly ! & most of all i'm missing EverydayHeroes ! but overall the ones i miss the most and badly are babylovees , twin and bestf ! especially twin . we're falling apart again twin bby ! i promise you i'll get you back twin ! i don't wanna this twinnyship to end again . not ever . you mean alot to me twin bby {: so twin bby , let's work this again okay ?! i miss you v v much twin bby ! i'm so gonna hug bestf , twin and babylovees when school reopens !

so today i spent time with abang and adeq at home . we watched Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak + Wujud 2.5 ! well , it was fun . abang laugh like orang gilerr ! ahaaa . JPKC was not bad but not worth watching at cinema ! Lucky sia ^^ . the movie is funny plus scary at the same time . more to funny lah actually ! laugh alot alot with abang and adeq ! ibu watched half way then she had to do cooking . too bad . hehe .

then we watch Wujud 2.5 ! it was super duper duper scary ! i sat super near to adeq ! ahaa . buat maluu jeek . but nevermind . then got this 'kakak' rambut pendek ! ahaaa . laughed with adeq . still there's some parts were super duper scary . me and abang was so concentrate ! we hear and see everything carefully . we even backward and all ! fafa step berani jeek nanti malam confirm tk boleh tidur ! ahaaa . confident uh fafa !

hmph . . right now i really don't know what else to blog and post . i've yet to checked my email . there's like alot ! super duper lazy uh nak check . but i better check soon cause it's freakingly alot ! so i guess , i'll update blog till here then . plus i guess i should be updating EverydayHeroes's blog . to take care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

i love you so v v much babylovees {!}

2009-09-07T19:51:00.006+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

SIXTH SEPTEMBER HAPPINESS .

Firstly , Happy 15th Birthday my dearest babylovees . dah 15 uh baby :) Secondly , Happy Fifth Monthsary babylovees ! I can't believe that we even reached this far ! O - M - G ! haha :D babylovees , i want you to know that i'll always love you v v much dearest ! i know we fight alot but still baby , you mean alot to me . seriously . no matter how often we fight , i want you to know that i've never hold any grudges towards you !

let's bring this far aye bby ?!

i love you so v v much dearest babylovees !

That's all for today . i'm also informing you readers that i won't be updating that much for now . i'll be busy preparing for hari raya . especially preparing cookies ! can't wait to celebrate hari raya ! cause i can't wait to wear my new baju raya ! ahaa :) That's all .

take care all awesomest readers ! &&

i love EverydayHeroes so v v much ! you guys are the greatest friends ever !

BYE {♥♥}

baby , i feel like i'm loosing you slowly . infact too soon ):

2009-09-01T09:24:00.005+08:00

Hello earthlings {!}

ahaaa :D finally , i've decided to update my blog . well i'm bored plus i'm not in a good condition yet i'm happy . happy not because i'm not in good condition but i'm happy that i get to go to school tomorrow even i'm in this state :D Thank God ! kay back about blogging .

first of all i wanna wish all those teachers out there who's been teaching a v v Happy Teacher's Day ! as for me i wanna thank all those teachers who's been teaching me and never gave up on me ! should i mention their names ?! errr , just put it uh to keep my post long ! hehe . they're miss lalitha , mr sidek , mrs teo , mr ho , mr zul , miss dino and especially Miss Zuhaidah Bte Sulaiman + Mrs Diana Ng !

Ms Zu's been the greatest among all . since sec 1 till now she never gave up on me . thanks to her i am what i am right now . sec 1 use to be those nuaghty girls who try to act big but Ms Zu has never gave up to change me . and indeed she managed to chnage me . i'm greatful to have her as my teacher . right now eventho she no longer teach me , to me she's still the best teacher i've ever had ! Ms Zu , thank you for all that you've done for me , my friends and the other students of your . You're the Best ! I love you v v much . Keep on doing your thing Ms Zu :D

Mrs Ng is one of the kind . she's a teachers who knows her students needs . when you're down she can easily spot it ! gosh ! she's the best :D right now she have left the school . eventho she's no longer in the school , i'll always remeber her as the teachers who's always giving exposure to me and wawa . she's the one who introduce us as a dancer infront of the whole NZ-landers last year . and make us get another chance this year . gosh , she helped us alot ! I still rmbr last year celebration . we bought for you cakes and all . it was the boombzzz ! pictures taken and all . gosh , i miss you so much Mrs Ng . Please do come back when you're free aye ?! 2N3 (2008) miss you so v v much . lastly i wish you best of luck in everything .

kay , i guess it's enough about my dearest teacher . ahaaa :D yterday school was normal . until i met abg kamil . i was happy to meet him and all . cause it's been long since i last met him . he looks way way better now . urrrghhhh . nvm about him , back to where i was . i met him and all and just something i did with kamil baby didn't like it . i fought with baby . and i decided to go seperate ways with him but at that point of time i was v v sad and i said all that with a heavy heart . but baby managed to talk things out with me . even if he didn't i'll make sure that i take back all those words i've said D: baby , i'm truly sorry ! gosh . enough about that . what matters now that we're back together ! that's what matter most ! skipped .

after recess we had Teacher's Day Concert . I wasn't really looking forward to it but i wanted to watch Azriq's moonwalk . MJ Dance . overall i only like NV Modern Dance Performance plus MJ Dnace by Azriq . The rest was in between not bad , bad and worst among all ! seriously my school's concert was that boring ! Lucky Azriq brought up the heat of the concert ! Baek azriq ! and azriq , congrats on getting third place for MJ's Dance Competition . You deserve it friend . Now i'm talking to much about azriq .

Concert ended . yada yada . things was getting better between me and baby . but he ended up walking away . he promised me but still . . hmph D: i cried while trying to catch up with him ! tried to talk to him but he didn't even bother about me . he didn't even cared ! D: so i decided to walk off as i think he don't wanna see me anymore . so decided to sit at one place and i cried my hearts out without anyone with me . at that point of time i really need bestf ! hmph D: i was f pissed with myself ! hit my fist against the wall ! i wasted alot of my foolscape paper just to let out my anger . and yet i just can't stop crying DD:

so i decided to walk back to school hoping to see bestf but she went home alr ! managed to meet firzanah and amira . thanks girlfriends . you guys been always there for me ! thank you v v much ! sat and one place with them and talked things over . cried badly and i was so malu lah ! but can't control so i just let it out . texted boyf and got to know he was just few meters away from where we were sitting . it's just that we can't see each other . meet him and talk things out with him . gosh !

right now i can really say that i'm loosing him slowly ! baby , i seriously think i didn't change . you're the who has change . idk why you're reacting this way towards me like almost all the time ! if you think you wanna end this please tell me but please don't treat me this way . it hurt me so much ! what hurt me most was to see you get hurt . i'm sorry for not being the girl you wanted me to be . i'm sorry for always hurting you . i'm sorry for always backing out my words . i'm sorry for breaking promises . I'm Sorry For Everything ! i guess i'm prepared if you were gonna leave me . eventho it's gonna be hard for me . even if you were to end this i want you to know that in my eyes it'll never end ! it will never ever end ! ! cause i love you so v v much . infact too much till it's hard to let you go ! BabyLovees , i love you so v v much {♥♥}

alright alright . enough about all this . at the very least i'm still with babylovees . but i'm wondering how long more we'll we go ?! our fifth monthsary are just days away . so is baby's birthday ! haiz , i wonder if we'll reach there ?! i really really hope we will . pray hard fafa :D have some faith ! i really don't know what to get for baby ! will a long lasting relationship do ?! ahaa . i'm starting to cheer up . that's good ! hehe .

aiyaaak ! i can't puase seyy today D: so sedih . hari raya is like in two weeks and 5 days ! yaaay :D it's nearing day by day ! fafa like-y :D can't wait for hari raya seyy . gosh . but this year kinda sad for my family . my father's side . most of them are gone and i'm sure it's gonna be different now . haizz . . nevermind at least i still my family ! what's left to buy ?! New BAJU RAYA ! ! yaaay ! buying it this weekend as my whole family is not working and is free ! yaaay . finally another complete family outing ! haiyoo . been waiting for this days to come ! yaaay . confirm best + kecoh seyy . got me + abang somemore . hehe :D

can't wait can't wait ! gosh , right now i'm missing baby v v much ! hope tmrw will be a better day for us aye ?! pray v v hard fafa . no more fights tmrw , i hope ): alright readers , i guess i'll blog till here aye ?! to amni and firzanah ; BigBoobs (BB) dah senyap nampak ! Hardcore lah sangat reply dorang ! ahaaa :D baik pey firr ! keling abes ! haha ! kay kay . Take Care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

i miss baby v v much {!}

2009-08-29T10:58:00.006+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

it's only saturday yet i miss baby v v much ! i'm wondering what is he doing right now . haiz . . how i wish yterday was fine cause at least i'll get to have during my weekend . but after what happen , not anymore D: i've been thinking about him since yterday . hmph . . baby , i miss you f much ! how i wish you're with me right now . i got alot to say to you but seriously don't know where to start . infact i don't know if i should even say it to you . baby , i love you so v v much ! this post is super duper random . but seriously i miss my babylovees so v v f much D:

i guess that's all . ahaa . i'll be back for second post and promise it'll be a proper one . but i'm not sure if i'll be updating again later . take care all awesome readers ! selamat berpuasa teman-teman {!}

BYE {♥♥}

BABYLOVEES , I MISS YOU SO V V MUCH {!}

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER IMGINE {!}

IT'S LIKE I NEED YOU EVERY SECONDS WITH ME {!}

YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME BABY {!}

BABYLOVEES , I LOVE YOU SO V V V MUCH {!}

baby , you're too far for me to reach out to you D:

2009-08-28T15:26:00.007+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

actually i'm not really in the mood to update but seriously i'm bored . school been the same as usual . just adding up the fun are those pathetich indian girls who just wanna find fault with us . that part i gotta agree , it was freakingly fun . other than that . . errrr , i don't think there's anything new in school . i won't be updating about school cause it'll be the same old grandmother story . seriously i'm not in the best of mood . yet , idk why i'm still typing !

what happen today is not what i wished for . what i wished was not to fight with baby for the whole day . but eventually i failed D: things around me has changed . everyone's around me has changed . including me . but i guess when that particukat person change , they'll never realised it . cause from what i know baby said i've changed and yet i insist i didn't . maybe i did and maybe i don't . i seriously can't see in what ways that i've change . can anyone help me figure it out ?! gosh ! life been unfair to me . it's been v v hard on me ! i feel like giving up but thank to the ones who were always there for me , i keep going on . i seriously wanna make things back to normal like always . especially between me and baby D:

things been different between me and baby . and what happened today was not what i wished before . it was totally unexpected . when you told me not to talk to you again , first thing that came to my mind was , "is he gonna end this" . baby , i know i've hurt you over and over again . like you said among all your relationships , in this relationships of ours , i've hurt you the most . yes , maybe i'm not as good as the other girls you've knew but baby i'm still trying my v v best to change . i seriously miss those days we had not fighting for the whole day , i miss those days where we always shared jokes and laugh together . i miss those days v v v much !

before this when we fight it can hardly be seen that we're falling apart . but now ?! each time we fight i really feel like we're drifting far and far apart . too far for me to reach out to you . why must this feeling come ?! why ohh why ?! why only now we're like this ?! why baby ?! yes , maybe i'm the cause to everything that's happening now . but baby i swear i wished that none of this would happened ! while typing this , tears are falling down . this week been emotional for me . it's been the worst week of all !

baby , all this while i always look up to you cause only by looking at you can make me be happy through out the whole day . but now , each time i see you i'll be happy but why does that happiness doesn't last long ? why can't we be like before ? i know it's almost impossible for me to ask you to be exactly like before . but what i asked for i want you to be the old hafizzudin i used to know . i seriously feel like you no longer need me . why is just things been hard for us ?! why must we be in this state ?! why ?! my mind is filled with questions . baby , idk about you but for me i know that i still love you so v v much like i always do ! i swear D:

i'm tired of faking my smile and laughter . before this when i'm with baby even when i'm angry i can always be happy . but now ?! everything's changed huh ? baby , i want you to know that no matter how often we fight or no matter how often you scold me , i'll always love you like i always do . like i said before , baby you gave me the greatest impact in my life . you mean alot to me , without you i don't know if i could carry on my life for even one day ! i don't think i can go on blogging anymore . i guess i'll blog till here . take care all awesome readers .

BYE {♥♥}

baby , i'm sorry for everything {!}

2009-08-26T16:44:00.004+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

today is like only the fifth day of puase sey . still got long way to go . but then kalau kiter pejam celik pejam celik dah last day of puase . kay dah enough about puase . i was about to update blog yterday but i seriously wasn't in the best of mood D: so i decided to update today . i guess i won't be updating much about school . cause to me , school's getting more and more irrtating . actually , it's not really that bad uh .

to be frank with you readers , i'm still not in the best of mood . the feeling of guilt is taking over me D: things has not been good between me and baby . baby said i've changed . i'm still figuring it out eventho i already know one . hmph . . after long not fighting , this few days we've been fighting alot . i'm seriously dissapointed in myself . why can't i just make baby happy . just for once . for god sake fafa ! it's been four months we've been together and yet there's not a day i can make baby smile and laugh like thru out the day D: i failed each time i tried . i guess i'm just not a good girlf .

i've never imagined a day like yterday will come cause seriously it was unexpected . baby , i guess you just had enough of my attitude . i'm truly sorry D: but please , promise me not to ever walk away just like that aye ?! it gave me all those wrong idea about our relastionship . please never ever do that . never had i thought all this would happen . and when i've experience it , i swear i'm not gonna be that way again !

baby , i'm truly sorry if all this while i've been hurting . sorry for not knowing that i've changed . i'm v v sorry . i know all this while i've been dissapointing you over and over again with my attitude . and without fail you always gave another chance . baby , i've tried to change but there's just some parts of me wouldn't allow me to do that . i know there's some parts of me that you hated but baby , maybe those are the parts which is so hard fof me to change . i know you gave me alot of time to the changes and i guess you've given me enough time yet i'm the one who's being stubborn and don't wanna change D: i'm v v sorry baby . while typing this idk why i'm crying . hmph . . and baby , about the conversation i had just now , i swear i didn't mean it . i swear . it just came out from my mouth . i'm trully sorry D: baby , like you said i do wanna last this relationship as far as i can . cause baby , you're the love of my life . i love you v v much ! ♥♥

kay i guess enough about baby . hmph . . i'm tired of faking my smiles and luaghter ever since yterday . yes , it's v v hard but i've to bare with it cause i don't want the rest mood to be affected by my attitude . i guess that's the best thing i could do . eventho baby said he forgive me , i know that there's some space in him still mad at me . i understand . and it's okay baby . maybe i deserve to be treated like this . hmph . . i guess i'll be updating till here only aye ?! take care all awesome readers .

BYE {♥♥}

i miss baby v much over the weekend {!}

2009-08-24T17:13:00.004+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

yes ! like finally i get to touch this lappy . . been busy as puasa dah start . . ahaa . been attending solat terawih . . seumur hidup fafa puase ni lah pertama kali fafa solat terawih . alhamdullilah :D i'm proud of it actually . . fafa harap satu hari nanti fafa dpt buat 20 rakaat solat terawih . . amin . kay now let's do blogging proper .

saturday night ;

first day of buke with family without abg D: saad . . nvm . lepas buka siap2 off to masjid al-mawaddah for terawih . masjid full lah kan . . saw alot of my friends . saw hazimah , achik , syawal and muzafar . infact hazimah was just infront of me sey . . ahaa . . didn't tegur but we did smiled . and guess what ?! i didn't get to tell her that i miss her so v v much ! hmph . . nvm , next time uh ! saturday managed to do only 8 rakaat as we had to leave to nenek's house . so lepas fafa , ibu dan adeq buat 8 rakaat , kiter jumper ayah . and off ayah drove us to nenek's house . reached , rumah nenek punyer lah kecoh ! ader cucu plus cicit nenek aku ! cute bangeet . namer dier allya :D cute to the maximo nyerr . mata sepet mcm anak ciner dah . ahaa :D plus dier tak takut org . she even kissed me uh ! ahaaa . . then from nenek's house , left to uncle's house . {my father's twin} ayah wanted to ambek him candu . faham faham jek lah :D hehe . then finally home sweet home !

sunday ;

woke up late . and i was super duper late for madrasah ! gosh . lucky ayah sent me . i was like half an hour late . enetered al-quraan class and was happy to see afrina ! i super duper missed her ! then yada yada . kena nagged with ustazah for something plus i didn't hafal my sura al-buruj . must hafal by next week seyy D: hopefully i can . then heeded to our next class . saw nabilah and quraisha ! gosh , only god knows how much i mis 'em ! especially quraisha . and like finally nuraini came lah kan ! among all missed her the most . it's been weeks since she last came sey :D nurainiQ, get well soon aye bby ?! then yada yada . time to sloat jemaah . then something funny happen . after solat i took out my socks as i always do that . but yterday when i saw ustazah sulastri terus fafa pakai alek sey . me and quarisha was like , "pakai balek cepat uh !" pnaic gilerr sey . fafa dah lah pakai pants straight cut plus my tudong not acceptable still nak take out socks . aiyooo , confirm she call parents one seyy . . after that heeded back to class . laughed all the way with quraisha . then yada yada yada . we all heeded home .

reached home . got changed accompany ibu to rivervale plaza . ibu didn't cook so we bought outside food . ibu and kakak had this malay food . ayah had bubur . adeq , idk she had what . fafa ? i had double fillet-o-fish for buker :D reached home cukup mase untk buker . . then yada yada yada . after solat maghrib got changed and off to terawih . again , we had difficulty finding carpark . so ayah dropped us first . then after solat isyak we did terawih . after did 8 rakaat . we left . and guess what ?! we heeded to nenek's house again . as she asked us to pass bubur to my uncle's house . at first we all were tired but then bulan puaser , dapat pahala oi ! ahaaa :D after sending the bubur , home sweet home .

monday / today ;

woke up at 5.45 for sahur . had a really light sahur . then decided to go back to sleep . ibu was kind enough to help me iron my school uniform sey . if not confirm fafa lambat . so woke up at 6.15 , bathed and solat subuh then left house . met baby at bus stop he was late yet the bus came on time ! not fair ! inside joke between me and boyf :D reached school then yada yada . start the lesson .

had biology then social studies then chemistry then geography then malay then recess then maths then english then D&T then off goes the bell . ahaaa :D actually i'm lazy to type uh . but to fizzo , kau take care ehk ! i'm gonna get you back you i don't know what ! ahaaa :D damn you fizzo k-xiao !

NEXT . after school accompanied baby to CP as he wanted to buy this PS3 game . after that we heeded to lepak at area rumah dier . main purpose ? i just wanted to see his the other new boots . it's freakingly nice uh ! like the box , super duper cute . ahaaa :D then we heeded another place . talk and talk and talk . then decided to heed home . he sent me off and we went seperate ways . missing something ? ahaa , we didn't hug . puasa perr :D

then now currently at home . waiting for time to buka ! i'm hungry . plus i'm chatting with taufiq ! miss that cousin of mine . amcm taufiq deal maseh on ehk fiqqo ! let's wait and see . and banyak lah taufiq pey dah pass liciense motor ! tak baik tau tipu tipu di bulan yang suci ini . ye lah fafa , mcm paham jek ! ahaaa :D few more hours to go . . i guess i better stop here . i 've to clear the kitchen uh ! so till here i'll blog aye ?! take care all awesome readers .

BYE{♥♥}

selamat bepuasa teman-teman {!}

2009-08-22T15:32:00.006+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

i have nothing to say or post actually . . but jyeaah i'm bored so decided to drop by my blog . ahaa . . yterday i had a great time chatting with syed tortise . . ahaa . . laughed alot . we were both bored so decided to crap to enetertain each other . ahaa . . after long not chatting , finally yterday we chat . . it's was supe duper lame uh . . mcm budak kecik seyy kiter . . syed is like abang yng tk tau nk mengalah . . ahaa . . we crapped super duper alot seyy . . ahaa . looking forward to chat with him again soon . . but still i bet he'll take a very long time to online again . cause syed kan tortise ! ahaaa :DD went offline and online again at night . . chatted with bestf firzanah . she was not herself yet she want to deny it . aiyoo . . fir ohh fir , PINKAHULK tau lah fir . hehe :D but still i managed to cheer her up even for a short while . . fir , cheer up aye ?! yknow i'm here for you right ? talk to me when you feel like you need to bby . . i mean like that's what friends are for . kan kan kan ?! we'll crap again next thursday . . yknow what i mean ((:yterday boyf texted me . he told me that he was indeed pissed when he read my blog . . i was like ouhh damn ! i knew it ! D: bie , i'm sorry if what i've posted hurt you . . no matter what , yknow i love you v v much right ! i guess that's what matter most ! and and please don't leave me baby ! plus i'll defenietly wash my hands . . inside joke between me and boyf :D alright alright enough about yterday ! today , i didn't go for my H&W training as i woke up super duper late ! plus i was lazy to go . . first day of puasa somemore . today planned with fir bestf to go orchard to watch azriq's MJ performance but we both can't make it as parents don't allow . . reason ? hari pertama of puase . . aiyoo . . in any way best of luck azriq ! all the way ! your moonwalk cute gyler ! gaaaaaah ! i'm trying to spend my time and get myself tired in order for time to fly fast . . cause seriously fafa tk sabar nk buke puase . . i'm starting to feel hungry alr . no no no ! don't talk about food . . ouhh ya , i've finally get some pictures from firzanah . pictures during our class trip . . and i totally love the one above . . it was sweet of boyf to do that :D i love his heart . . alah for short i simply love him lah kan . . && in that shadow i look so tall . . ahaaa :D and time fly real fast as my fifth monthsary will be coming in three weeks time . and that's mean it's boyf's birthday too ! too bad i can't go out on that day as it falls on sunday . . haizz . . nvm back about the pictures . . if you want the pic go to firzanah's FB :D alrigt i guess it'll be a short post for today . . gosh it's only 3.50 sia ! nevermind , i'll wait patiently ! till here . . take care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

blog is back like normal . like finally {!}

2009-08-21T14:40:00.006+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

hell yeah i'm officially back at blogger . i'm bored using OnSugar . now i'm freakingly happy cause now i know what to click to make blog like normal . . siaper nk tau tanyer aye ? ahaa :D trust me my kakak also is f happy ! go her blog and her post is like super duper long ! i read it like only half way and then i see the pictures only . . banyak panjang lorr the post . . malas seyy nak bacer . . kay enough about me getting back to blog . . let's start off with school for yesterday and today . .

yesterday ;

school was not bad yterday . worked things out with boyf alr . i can't really remember what we did during school hours but i knew that me and fir was so not looking forward for the CCM lesson after school . . also i rembered during D&T i talked alot with fizzo . . shocking and disgusted . like totally , eeeeeeewwwwwww ! O-M-G ! ! then yada yada . . . and ouhh ya . . something happened between me and boyf ! it was freakingly cute of boyf . . ahaaa . . not gonna elaborate more . . then school ended . waited for firzanah to come back from english class . then off we go canteen to buy food and drinks . then we slacked with eyfah , wanie and friends plus bestf . and i saw boyf and fizzo so i went to them cause i really can't stand the situation . . only fir knows it . then yada yada . bestf left with the rest . boyf left with fizzo for ping pong ! and left me and firzanah . so we decided to heed for our CCM lesson . .

idk why but right after we enter our CCM lesson we became super duper hyper ! we laughed like alot sia . . we entertain each other . we crap till the rest laugh too . and most of all we made friends . . ahaaa :D then we learn new chinese words . . i manged to grab some pics during the lesson . . then we were given a 1o minutes break . . me and fir left the library . . then we saw amirul and his friends . . irritate him for awhile . . take our own sweet times . . talked about how close me and fir has been . . right now i can say that i own the 2 bestest bestf ever ! which is wawa and firzanah ! and no one will be able to change that ! get that ?! ahaa . . yada yada yada . . and guess what ?! me and fir was like super late for class after the break . . we kinda missed alot ! but nvm , who cares anyway ! fir , do you ? i doubt so . ahaaa :D then we had this conversation between us and the teacher . . it was freakingly funny ! only the 5 of us know it ! ahaaa :D

then like finally the lesson is over ! me and fir decided to wait for bestf . . and while waiting heeded to the field to meet dearest boyf ! saw his new boots . . it was so striking ! it was yellow . . and got this boy was like "fiz , exchanged with me uh" ahaaa :D and of course boyf didn't exchange with him lah . . like durhh ! he only lent it to him . . then yada yada yada . heeded to GO to meet bestf . . ms loo was there talking to us also ! it was damn funny lah :D then waited for boyf as well . . yada yada . . talk talk talk . we all heeded home .

bus -ed home with boyf and dyy . . and guess who i saw while i was in the bus ?!?! i fuckingly saw that fucktartd guy uh ! that so called AYUL GOODBOI ! urghhh ! told myself not to cry but my mistake was to tell boyf . . and boyf was like "yang u bilang i buat aper ?" then i was like . . gosh i shouldn't have told him D: then we all stopped at the same bus stop . . dyy left first . and guess what ? boyf left me without even saying goodbye D: he just walked away . . i was so pissed more to sad actually . . at that point i knew he was pissed with me . . i can't do anything much . i guess he need time by himself . so let him be D:

reached home . yada yada . bathed and ate already . i recieved one text msg from boyf . . i was so glad when he msg-ed me ! but then he was sad DD: haizz . . eversince than , i can't stop thinking about him . wanted to call him but he didn't even allow me to do that . so jyeaah . . i can't do anything D: haiyoo . . boyf ohh boyf D: sorry if i were the reason to your sadness . then i got nth else to do so i decided to go to bed . trust me i was having a hard time to sleep . . i guess that's all for yterday .

today ;

like always met boyf at the bus stop eventho yterday he wasn't in the best of me and just walk away D: managed to talk to him and all . . board the bus , reached school and heeded to canteen as he wanted to buy drinks . . then saw bestf . she wanted to scare me but she failed ! ahaa . . then heeded to class . . had RFC , then temperature check and all . . then had our reflection period .

after reflection we had our SS test right away . . and guess what ?! all my efforts went down the drain cause i didn't write much as i was f-ing lazy ! aiyooo . . then after SS test , we had our English test . . continued from yterday's paper . and guess what ?! me and boyf didn't do it . . ahaa . . baek perr ?! not really uh actually . .

after english , had chemistry . chemistry was kinda fun had this experiment . but it wasn't that clear as it was small . but nvm . . still managed to see tho . . then yada yada . after 2 periods had gone , we had Bio next . we all heeded to Lab as ms loo told us to meet her there . and she was late . . and boyf and my experiment was a fail D: haiyoo . . nvm try again next time boyf . . hehe . . planned to throw it away but boyf insist on keeping it . . i totally love apple's and bestf's flower . it was nice plus cute :D i'm jealous . . nevermind . heeded back to class after bio dissapointing lab lesson . ahaa :D

had maths after that . . currently i'm totally maths as it's so confusing ! plus mr ho's busy coaching the others and i guess he has no time for me D: sadness D: and we were suppose to complete this worksheet before we heeded to recess . but me and boyf cabot ! gosh , today me and boyf has been a bad student . . ^^ kening naeknek . so overall the lesson we had before recess was kinda not bad . .

we all left for recess . . after long we finally had a big group of ppl for recess again . bestf and boyf ate the mee goreng i brought for them . still we didn't talk alot . i can see that now all will be gg seperate ways as all have like their so called own partner . . but it's okay . .what matter most as long fizzo , boyf , bestfr and fir stays the same . nothing else matter .

after recess we had geography lesson . don't wish to elaborate what exactly happened during the lesson cause it would only spoil my mood D: after gg thru the geog test paper , we had our retest ! like wtf , it's the third test paper for the day sia ! rabak perr . . then finally the paper ended . heeded to Vari Nice with boyf as he wanted to buy food , so i accompanied him . then we heeded to one of the void deck . after he finish eating , we heeded ton econ as he wanted to buy drink . then we joined bestf , fir , hanis and amira . played bestf's bike . it was fun ! eventho i only went for one round . . it was scary plus slippery yknow ! the game didn't lasted that long . . than we all heeded home . bus-ed home with boyf . . then we went seperate ways . .

reached home . yada yada . like finally i had my filet-o-fish ! how pathetic i can be ! currently i'm thinking about boyf . . eventho we've been in school together infact in the same time , i'm missing him so badly lately . cause he's not been himself for the whole week ! i'm super duper sad D: he's not be treating me like the way he used to . but it's okay , at least he told me that he has his own problems . . i really hope by next week he'll be back to his oldself . . dearest boyf , i really really miss you !

kay enough about boyf . tmrw kiter dah puaser . . yaaaay ! like i said i'm super excited for this year's puase ! ahaaa . . and tmrw i'll we gg for terawih with family . . and that mean i have to blajar niat untuk solat terawin . . someone help me with that please ! i've asked my friends but none of them knew it . ouhh ya lah , i bet ayah know the niat . . fafa ohh fafa :D how dumb can you be ?! aiyooo . . alright i guess that's all for today . . take care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

i guess it's ending D:

2009-08-19T15:43:00.007+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

i'm back but jyeaah . . blog will be like a normal typical one as it's still crazy . . alot has happened to my life . . yet one thing has not which is my attitude . . haizz . . won't be blogging about those days that i didn't update . cause if i were to do that , even one whole day is not enough to update . . so i'll just update about today . . which is totally linked to my blog tittle . .

well today was kinda fine . as always met boyf and all . . boyf was super hyper in the bus . . eventho at certain point . arghhh , boyf's so cute . . but sadly the happy times in the bus didn't last that long . reached school , boyf became restless . . idk why ? perharps he's just tired . . still i managed to irritate my friends too keep me gg on . . it was fun and all till school was about to end . .

off goes the bell . . and boyf had to leave straight away with fizzo as they're gg QueensWay cause boyf wanna buy his soccer boots . . and we were suppose to do this hand shake and i actually walked away but seriously i didn't give face to him . . to boyf i did . i was like whatt ?!?! then he walked off . . i decided to went after him . . pulled him one side and talked to him .

and boyf i swear i didn't raised my voice to you sey . . never did i even had that intention ! like seriously . . and please lah since when i gave you face each time you wanna go out with your friends . . don't make it sound as if i don't have my own life . . yes , i'm pissed . . but still i admit i was wrong cause jyeaah in way i was indeed rude to you . .

like i said to you boyf , lately we've not been spending time together like we always do . . maybe you're too busy for me or maybe you're just sick of me already . . seriously it feels like i'm loosing you slowly and infact it's like i'm loosing you soon . too soon )): yes , maybe i don't understand you much or maybe i'm irritating but please bby don't treat me this way . . like you said to me once "it hurts me so much when my own girlf is treating me this way" well i guess it's my turn to say it now . it hurts me so much when my own boyf treats me this way . . right now i have no doubt that it's gonna end soon . . i know you hate me each time i say this . but it's seriously playing in my mind . . while i'm typing this idk why i'm crying . . it's been long since we fight and suddenly we fight today . . gosh , it's killing me . but seriously i text boyf something i shouldn't have texted . . i told him not to bother about me anymore )): which i swear i totally didnt mean it . .

boyf , i'm truly sorry for acting this way towards you and all . . i seriously don't think i'm giving you faces and i don't think that i actually raised my voice at you just now . i swear i didn't . . obviously , you're not gonna talk to me tmrw neither do you wish to see me tmrw . . don't worry i won't be disturbing you and all like i always do . . you do you're own thing and i'll do mine . you go your own way and i'll go mine . . eventho it's gonna be hard for me . i just want you to know that i'm really seriously sorry . . i know there's no point of me saying sorry cause i'll always repeat the same mistake . i know you're sick of listening to me saying sorry but seriously that's all i can say . . boyf , once again i'm truly truly sorry D:

i guess school won't be the same for the next few days . haizz . . i really regret what i texted boyf just now D: but then i guess he needs some time of without me by his side or perharps that's what he wants . if that's the case then we'll have time out . . gosh , time flies real fast and in two more days we'll be fasting . idk why but i'm excited this year . . hope i'll get to puasa full this year . . btw , i wanna thanks bestf , firzanah , hanis and amira for cheering me up just now eventho they know i was putting up a strong act infront of them . . sorry for giving fake smiles and laughter just now girlfrs . . but still sorry for walking too fast ahead you guys cause really don't wanna let you guys see me crying cause i know it'll defenietly spoil everyone's mood . . but still i wanna thank korang for everything just now ((: blind mice was awesome with you guys ((: plus coloured crocodile . i guess i'll blog till here . . take care all awesome readers !

BYE D:

will be away for a long time :D

2009-08-11T20:09:00.010+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

don't bother reading my blog {!} i'll be on HIATUS . . i'm not busy but i'm just too lazy to update ! ahaaa . so people . i'll inform when i'm coming back aye ?! plus i'm freakingly pissed with blogger . get well son lah blogger ! i wanna update proper . i got alot of pics to update . please get well soon blogger . that's all for now peeps ((:

I'LL BE ON HIATUS {!}

BYE {♥♥}

countdown {!}

2009-08-04T20:08:00.001+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

sumpaaah ehk blogger giler ehk . haiyooo ! now i can actually update blog like normal . fafa likey :D kay kay . let's update about school . eventho it's gonna be a boring one ! just bare with it . don't wanna read , for all i care leave :D

like always meet boyf then yada yada . reached sch . heeded to canteen boyf bought for me one bottle of drink as he owe me one for loosing . ahaa ((: i was just kidding tho . nevermind . then joined fir and teshwin at the parade sqaure . didn't talk much tho with them . only went hanis came then we start talking but too bad that old VP chase us away .*not really uh* then after FRC , upper sec had our Assembly . walked to hall as a class . ahaa . mcm primary school seyy . cute oi ! dah mepek .

assembly was freakingly boring ! talked about school and road safety . walao ! it's all like basic lorr . aiyooo . boyf was kinda pissed i think . ahaa ((: he was like "ni sumer basic sey" *in his bingit voice* ahaaa . he very cute laah . . kay next . after that we had malay . it was just for a short while and like always munir shared his ghost story . banyak seyy munir nyerr crite hantu . . in ways i miss that buddy of mine cause i've not been attending my health and wellness . i think i'll be going this thursday . cause i think i got alot to talk to my dearest buddy ! && just now i saw my bestie , AHMAD FAIZ ! ahaaa :D puposely put his full name . if he were to read this he'll get irritated ! ahaaa :D in ways i miss him uh . . he's not like dulu uh . i miss the old AHMAD FAIZ . the old AHMAD FAIZ used to be the greatest bestie i could count on . but now ?!?! we hardly talk . infact it's hard to find you in sch nowadays ! aiyooo . . bestie ohh bestie ! nevermind . take care kay bestie ?! i know you know that i'll be here for you . . skipped .

after malay we had PE . got changed . was kinda pissed in the toilet cause bestf and amira was happily scaring me ! you'll get your karma back girls . firzanah taught me that ! ahaaa :D mentor fafa uh ! haha . the we all assemble infront of PE cabin . we were all laughing all the way . it feels great just now . idk why tho ! just feel the bonding is back again :D kay next . this PE we played soccer ! fafa maen SOCCER oi ! didn't really play uh . i like the starting part but went the so called match start , i sucks at it ! stupid orange for distracting me ! i'll get you back uh orange ! i had fun tho . then played for a while then we stopped . heeded back to calss for next lesson . .

had english next . we took cloze passege test . were not allowed to discuss but me and boyf discussed abit . today boyf irrirate me alot ! he's like so boring so decided to irritate me :D i got pissed but still i managed to follow the flow ! i like it when he's hyper so next time i'll just follow the flow eventho sometimes i just can't take it . i like to see boyf smile :DD cause he own a dimple . when he smile ot laugh he'll look v cute ! ahaaa :D *kembang kembang* kay then english ended .

next we had GEOG . it was kinda boring . so i don't have to elaborate more on it . but still i'm looking forward for mr sofiyan to teach me personally cause i can't get wth miss lee is teaching ! aiyooo . skipped ! next we had recess . again i skipped that health and wellness . told fir to buy for me something . she did buy for me but then ended up she bought for me 2 . it's okay firzanah . plus thanks bestf ! than boyf bought for me another bottle of drink as he lost twice in the game we played yterday ! ahaaa :D kesian boyf fafa ! ahaaa . . then we left for class early . jas was with us as well . tu budak suker stare org lah ehk ! then yada yada . reached class . and mr ho asked me to changed back into sch uni . so i changed . then yada yada .

had Social Studied . Miss Shamini didn't come so we had free period . first period we did nothing than the second period we decided to play Police And Murderer . at first there's only 5 of us playing than apple and orange joined . it was freakingly funny lah . apple v blur blur sia . while orange can't stop laughing . and fir was making a fool out fo herself througout the game . ahaaa :D perangai joker sia fir ! hahaa . then after played and laughed all at the same time we didn't wanna the game to end but the period had to change . aiyoo !

next we had maths . got back our maths test paper . and hell yeah i passed and i owe dearest boyf big ! he helped me alot in this topic eventhough during the test he helped me too . ahaaa :D i got 18 out of 25 . guess boyf get how much ?! ahaaa , same as me :DD biaser lah . . haha . then we went through the answers . after that we had to do worksheets . did mine with full of semangat but boyf didn't . he played like all the way . mcm small boy . but seriously i prefer him this way :D he seems cuter plus more hyper . hehe :D he played this long wire which idk came from where . haha . then he neglect his maths papers . aiyooo . then yada yada . lesson ended .

got chnaged into my ODAC tshirt . then me and boyf heeded to somewhere near boyf's house . lepak there . didn't talk alot but boyf did irrtate me all the way ! boyf fafa cute lah kan ! ahaaa :D then around 3.30 left as i had ODAC training but i was late like obviously ! ahaaa :D boyf accompanied me till the bus came which i waited freaking long ! aiyooo . . then hug-ed me board the bus . reached school and i saw hanis , twin , firzanah and andriana . best uh fir datang ! if not confirm boring . but sadly we didn't played the bicycle as one of our bike were stolen ! stupid sheat uh ! damn you whoever who took the bike ! so we got no choice but to playe games . was hoping to have fun till something happen . i didn't play at all as i didn't have the mood at all D: sat in the toilet with twin . and had great talk with her eventhough it was a short one . we talked we didn't realised it was already 5.30 . then we were dibrief . .

ODAC ended texted boyf as he was gonna fecth me . met him then we lepak at the usual . . at first we didn't talk alot as something happen . and we didn't talk for quiet a long time . sorry aye boyf ?! haiyoo . . then things got better . boyf irrtate me again ! aiyooo . . now i know how irritating he came be when he's damn boring ! ahaaa . but seriously if you follow his flow he can be very extremely cute . we talked about UFO just now . ahaaa :D randon sia ! ended up boyf got bingit with me for talking alot about UFO ! i got you back syg ! ahaaaa :DD then we left that place around 6.30 . . took the LRT back home . then yada yada . we went seperate ways .

then yada yada . here i am at home updating blog plus chatting ! i wanna change my blogskin lah ! aiyooo . don't have the nice nice one seyy . . . bingit perrr ! still searching tho . and right now i have one goal for tmrw ! which is to be earlier before boyf ! i wanna show him that i can be early too . . ahhaa :D

&& my monthsary coming in 2 days time ! gosh time flies real fast ! gosh . . we're gonna be four months old already . and seriously after what happen it's gonna be hard to let you go bby . please don't ever let me go boyf . i was thinking of getting for boyf something but he's so not gonna be happy with that so let me keep it till his birthday aye ?! which is next month on 6 of September . same as our fifth monthsary :D hopefully we reach there aye bby ! countingdown . i love you so v much dearest boyf :D

alright , i guess i'll blog till here cause seriously i wanna find a perfect new blogskin . i'm sick of my current one ! ouhhh please let me find a good one for my blog ! aiyooo . please lah . banyak susah worr . . . kay kay . . till here aye ?! take care all awesome readers .

BYE {♥♥}

blogger get well soon {!}

2009-08-03T19:58:00.000+08:00

hello earthlings {!}
i'm so freakingly pissed with blogger right now . i so can't update my blog and it's been weeks this thing been going on ! i wanna blog proper lah seyy D: haiyooo ! stupid blogger . nevermind still i'll try to update like usual . eventhough is so hard !
finally today bestf came ! hugged he tightly when i saw her in the morning . i miss her like alot sia ! and believe it or not i miss boyf alot over the weekend seyy . . . and idk why i was so happy to see him this monrning ! that's why i left my house early ! ahaaa :D but still boyf was late . aiyaaak . . kay i don't think i'll blog alot about today . but for short i spent my time well with boyf and fizzo . it was kinda fun . first boyf and fizzo played this thingy . i just find it weird . then played bicycle for awhile . then went up to boyf house didn't go in uh . he took UNO . then i played STRESS with him . sumpaah ehk boyf fafa mcm small boy main . ahaaa :D very cute lahh . . play again uh boyf ?! kay then around 5.30 we left but fizzo left earlier . then yada yada . . reached home . && finally my room is complete ! i'm so happy . hehe ((: kay dah dah enough . enough about school uh .
i tell you all uh never go Little India at night especially on weekends it's super duper dangerous . it feels like you're in india . left right you turn there must be an indian there ! andand they all bau busuk sey ! plus never ever let your feet be too small ! cause once you wanna find shoes it's gonna be a nightmare ! ahaa (: i bought new school shoes . wanted to buy Kappa shoes but my size was not available as my feet was too small . heeded to everlast shop , tried few shoes yet none fit my feet ! was so pissed alr ! cause it was alr like 10 at night and still i have yet to find a perfect shoes . later i had no choice but to buy converse shoes . so just entered the shop and grab something simple . and lucky there's my size if not i'm so gonna be freaking pissed ! why am i born fat plus small feet ?! dah enough . fafa be greatful with what you have !
alright , currently i'm not looking forward for tmrw's cca as most of my cliques won't be attending it due to concert rehersals ! my 2 dearest bestf won't be there . aiyooo . but nvm , hanis will be there . we'll still be kecoh aye girlf ?! ahaa . . and and i just rmbrd that my fourth monthsary is coming in 3 days time ! yaaay ! after all those hardship we still managed to made it ! i love you boyf :D okay okay . i guess i'll blog till here . take care all awesome readers !
BYE :D

i miss bestf v much {!}

2009-07-30T17:36:00.007+08:00

dearest bestf , it's been 3 days you're not in sch yet so many things happen . i miss v much bestf ! get well soon bby ! when you're not around things kinda different now . i seriously still need you around besides boyf . so bby , get well soon aytes ?! i miss you like very very much bestf . and trust me class has been boring without you around ! lastly , i love you very very much bby ! please come back soon cause i got alot to tell you {!}

dearest bestf , imyvvm & ilyvvm {!} ♥♥

Hello earthlings {!}

let me start blog proper . it's been days since i last touched my lappy . i guess i can say i've been busy ? or maybe not . i've been lazy updating blog as blog has been sick . school has been boring without bestf . also without bestf by my side why must all this happen ? i know i shouldn't intefere or what so ever but jyeaah . friend , i know after this you will never ever wanna talk to me again . but still i've said my piece . infact what i said is what other has been wanting to say to you . i've been your friends ever since sec 1 and i think i know how i'm like . i'm not those type who like to find fault lah . after this what ever gonna happen i don't think i'll care much cause at least i've said my piece . okay okay enough . eventhough all this happen i still have the greatest fun with my cliques . still i miss bestf ! lessons been great . it's just that boyf will get pissed with as i'm seriously stupid that i don't know how to answer the questions . aiyoo . sorry boyf . plus plus i've been spending more times with boyf that now i think i've been neglecting my girlfriends . next week , i promise you guys i'm all yours girlfriends ! frankly speaking i miss each and everyone of you girls !

currently chatting with firzanah . and upon hearing what she have said i'm having regrets . not about what i said to my friend but about how i've been acting ! let me just state the name aye . amni syazwani , i know you for like how long , 2 years . and we've been close friends since the day we knew each other . i should have trusted you better and i should been by your side but seriously i just didn't like the ways you settle certain stuff . for short you just don't know how to control your temper . i know i'm no one to stop you but friend , i know you're capable of changing . you've prove it to us once but eversince then you've change back to your old self . right now let me tell you something , i'm not on anyone side cause right now i don't know teshwin nor amri that well . not like how i know you friend . after all this , i still want you to know that i'm still your friend and i'm still someone that you can count on . eventhough now i know you hate me . i don't mind cause even if you said the same thing i said to you it would take me some times to be able to take it . so now it's up to you . i know in any ways you're gonna confront me and it's up to you how you wanna settle all this matter . whatever you say goes cause now i'm sick of fighting . you know how much i suffer when the last time we fight so now it's seriously up to you . school's gonna be different for now . i seriously need bestf by my side right now !

currently still chatting with dearest speedracer / bestf {!} lucky she's around . she's been the one there for me . aiyooo . ouhh gosh , i've just realised how much i miss my madrasah's cliques ! especially nabilah , afrina and quraisha ! i miss taking sweets with my sweets during lesson ! but still i don't feel like gg cause i don't wanna see that irritating hazman ! sumpaah ehk kau tk cool ! badol . aiyooo . kay enough about that . ouhhh ya , bestf you better come sch fast uh someone other that me been missing you badly bestf ! i'm sure yknow who ! ahaaa ((: kay kay i just rmbr i have geog test tmrw ! gaaahhh , ehkk boyf u punyer fav word kan ?! haha . i know you know bie ! ahaaa . kay i better stop updating cause if not i'll never stop . so till here i'll blog aye ?! take care all awesome readers . plus get well soon to bestf and hanis izyani ! miss korang alot especially my dearest bestf {!}

BYE {♥♥}

dead will be dead for a while {!}

2009-07-25T16:54:00.001+08:00

HELLO EARTHLINGS {!}
I CAN'T UPDATE THIS FREAKINGLY DEAD BLOG OF MINE {!} THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH BLOGGER I GUESS . BUT IT'S ONLY AFFECTING ME SIA . . . WTF ?! I'M FREAKING PISSED RIGHT NOW {!} NEVERMIND , I'LL UPDATE MY BLOG AS SOON AS I CAN AYE ?! && I FEEL LIKE POSTING THIS ; SpeedRacer + PsquareHulk = Best People Ever {!} THAT'S ALL . FOR NOW , I GUESS BLOG WILL BE DEAD ! TAKE CARE ALL AWESOME READERS .
BYE {♥♥}

day well spent with dearest boyf {♥♥}

2009-07-18T12:53:00.007+08:00

hello earthlings {!}

deleted yterday's post as now things has change . so jyeaah . i guess now me and boyf will have a smooth relationship . kay skipped . got my phone bacl alr ! yaay :D enough about it lah .

today woke up early as i had this health and wellness training . suppose to meet munir but he was seriously late ! so i went in first . today mr will and ms heng was incharged . it turned to be more fun than expected . today kak aisha got come and i'm in the same group as her . played "rugby" in a nicer way . it was kinda fun but i didn't play tho . i would rather run few rounds that play that rugby game . i tell you sumpaah the ball very sial ! it hitted me , sumpaah pain ehk ! stupid ball ! half way texted boyf . then yada yada . it ended one hour early ! so decided to play badminton with my buddy munir ! gerek lah kan munir ! and jyeaah we shared alot today :D no worries it's safe with me . still shocked tho . then boyf texted and told me that he left his house alr .

then munir accompany to the bus stop to wait for boyf . boyf came and munir left . me and boyf go kedai to buy food plus drinks . paid for boyf yet he pay me back ! badol uh u , bie . . kay next . then went to the other block to sit . then we talked alot like always boyf teased me . but this time i got him back ! ahaaa ((: tu lah kacau fafa lagy . . . and i've just realised something . we've been spending time together only on saturdays . and i'm loving it ! and today , i love it even better :D it was well spent time with boyf ! now i'm looking forward for every saturday cause only that day i can spend my time fully with boyf . kay enough uh .

talked with boyf about yterday . . we were both sad and jyeaah of course dissapointed but bie , lucky my mum managed to talk to my dad . if not we seriously got no choice sey . . haizz . . kay nevermind . cheer up cheer up boyf ! i'm still here with you . also talked about boyf life . stay strong kay bie ?! your girlf will still be here for you . i know you can fight whatever you're facing ! boyf fafa kan strong ! rmbr ?! fight all the way aye bie ?! you know i love you right . . . we may be far sometimes but our hearts will always be close to each other ! kay next fafa next .

after talking for quiet sometimes , it's time for me to heed home . boyf waited for me at the void deck as i had to go to the toilet plus add cash to my ez card . and sumpaah ehk boyf tak abes abes ngan dier nyerr small gerl ! kay then after doing all that , me and boyf waited for the bus . . board the bus . even in the bus boyf teased me . aiyoo . . . non stop lah ehk boyf !

then stopped at sengkang sec and walked back home . while walking me and boyf talked alot . how i wish everyday we're like this . . . can boyf can ? ? ? ahaa . . . kay then we had to climb this over head bridge . . i tell you uh sumpaah boyf climb up slow gilerr . . worst than and old man . aiyoo . but when we had to go down he went down real fast ! aiyoo . bie ohh bie . . kay then saw boyf 's sister boyfriend . then yada yada yada . hug-ed and off we went seperate ways . .

reached home , ibu called . ate the food abg bought for me . and now i'm like freakingly full ! suppose to comtinue to paint my room but today i let ayah do all the work ! suffer alone uh ayah ! this for yterday . boyf + ayah , i know you know we know ehk ! aiyooo . . . kay dah dah . currently chatting with no one cause i'm too tired to enetertain them . see boyf , today fafa tak entertain dorang uh . shocking news of the year jgk kan ?! haha . i know you know lah kan bie . . haha . kay kay dah . . .

to those who's been texting me , don't text me for today aye ?! cause my adeq will be using my phone as she's gg for the NDP preview . ATTENTION ATTENTION . PERHATIAN PERHATIAN . don't text me aye ?! jgn msg saya okay ?! okay . . . i'll blog till here aye ?! Take Care all awesome readers .

BYE {♥♥}

WE'LL BE YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE {!}

2009-07-16T19:41:00.010+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEE AWEXOME {!}

finally this girlf of mine is 15 lah kan {: first of all , sorry didn't manage to wish you face to face and celebrated your birthday like last year . it's like this year it's all different and difficult . so jyeaah . but still bby , i want you to know that we all miss you much especially me and wawa . cause i still rmbr those days we spent as trios and always shared problems together . i miss you girlf . i really do }: whatever it is . i'm grateful to have you as a friend and i hope things will change as days pass by aye ?! it's been 2 yrs we've been friends you may not know me the best but bby , i want you to know one thing and that is i love you very very much . i hope you'll succed in whatever you do and i hope you'll keep on smiling girlf ! and lastly , let's bring this friendship far aye gilrf ?!

i l o v e y o u g i r l f {!}

hello earthlings {!}

seriously speaking i'm not in the best of mood to update blog but i'm so gonna update cause i want my thought to be heard . not gonna say anythhing much but most prolly this post will be random !

have you ever wonder that someone you called friend will ditch you badly ? well i've never did wonder that too . but now i guess things change and people change . someone you thought that the best among all and someone you thought that would never do something unexpected , well don't ever think highly of someone . like boyf said no matter how good they look or how innocent they may look , deep inside you can never know what they are capable of doing . well i think i'll say straight to the point ! to those who think they can make me and bestf go seperate ways , please forget about that intention cause you'll fail . wanna know why ?! well it's simple . 3 yrs i've been with her . i've been with her through ups and downs , we know each other inside out ! we've been in fights like so many times and yet we managed to pull it through ! wanna revenge ?! take it out on someone else cause it won't work on us girls ! and thinking of making me and hanis fight ?! you got the wrong persons girls . it's like ovbiously i'll trust her more than i trust you girls ! we've got you ppl so jyeaah . siaper yang makan cili akan teraser perdas nyerr . if to make korang happy and satisfied is actually to make all of us go seperate ways then let me tell you guys something . . . you guys will never be happy and satisfied ! be with whoever you want . damn you guys we don't care . cause one thing's for sure and that is we're way happier than you guys ! and one more thing don't try to brainwash the new girl aye ?! i think whatever i'm updating will be clear enough for you ppl to know who you are aye ?! so jyeaah . it's up to korang to stop it cause we'll never go seperate ways no matter what ! GET IT ?! i'm still shocked and sad over this matter but seriously you girls have turned into a whole new person infact i couldn't even reconize you girls anymore ! blame us for making you girls break friendship with each other partner but rmbr you girls followed the flow when we talked about the other girls . and who were you guys with when you guys got no one to turn to ?! huh huh ?! rmr all this friends . . i'm lost of words now but girls if you think you can ditch us badly trust me we'll make it even worst ! we'll be your worst nightmare girls ! remember that ! BEST OF LUCK with your REVENGE {!}

things has been different now . i know that teshwin can't read this but bby , i want you to know infact i should say that we all want you to know we've never pretended like we liked you , seriously ! we all liked you hell much ! i think they're the one who are pretending so jyeaah ! no worries . we'll be your friends if they don't wanna be yours aye ?! cause we like you the way you are ! kay enough let's skip till after school .

heeded to CP after sch . and i swear boyf nari good mood {: he actually gave 5 buck and bought for me drinks plus chocolate ! sweet kan ?! haha . dah enough . talked alot about things mentioned above . today there was wawa , amira plus fizzo . it's been long we gathered like this . i feel so complete just now eventho without them ! hell with them lah kan ! they mean nth no more ! trust me to call them my friends D: kay skipped !

we also laughed alot ! it felt great to have those laughter back . and like boyf said i seriously need to catch up with bestf . spend more time together aye ?! hehe (: kay then yada yada . we all heeded home . like usual and we're sick of it ! me and boyf walked home together . then hug-ed and went seperate ways ! and blah blah blah .

now here i am updating blog plus chatting with Firzanah . been chatting about that and she agreed that we'll be their worst nightmare ! haiyooo . kay nevermind . boyf texted me to remind me about doing maths + english hw ! i maths some of it . english ?! idk how to do so jyeaah . still chatting with Firzanah . like fir said just ignore them and trust us we will girls ! suker hati korang lah kan nak buat aper ! we simply can't be bothered anymore . kay i guess i've blog to much ! till here i'll blog aye ?! take care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}

so what i'm FAT ?!

2009-07-14T19:41:00.012+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANIS IZYANI {!}

alahai , dah 15 lah kwn fafa {: bby , you're one year older now and i hope you'll be one year wiser too aye ?! it's been great being with you . you never fail to make me smile and laugh with your stupid jokes ! i love you friend . i'm greatful to have a friend like you who's always there for me when i'm down . it's been 3 yrs we've been friends you may not know me the best but bby , i know that you know one thing and that is i love you very very much . i hope you'll succed in whatever you do and i hope you'll keep on smiling girlf ! and lastly , let's bring this friendship far aye gilrf ?!

i l o v e y o u g i r l f {!}

Hello earthlings (!)

now i'll do a proper blogging . i didn't really have agreat day today . and i wanna say this to those who looked down on FAT people . FAT people need to live also okay . so respect them like the way they respect you . stop critisizing them ! put yourself in their shoe , what will you feel ?! why am i saying this ?! cause i'm FAT and people's been looking down on me . let me tell you people something ! i'm FAT and i'm happy cause why ?! i love the way i am ! so what if i'm fat ?! i own the greatest cliques , boyfr and life all better than yours ! so get it ?! why be thin when you can't be happy ?! so please respect and treat all FAT people just like the way you treat the others ! let's skip everything till after sch ! eventho i was kinda pissed i told myself not to show it so decided to accompany boyf take his new specs and HM while hanis and fir go CP first . at HM saw aisha and this guy forget his name . haha ((: after taking boyf 's specs , we trained to CP to meet hanis and fir . they were eating . boyf ordered his chicken chop and fries . then yada yada . came amni and company . after eating we all left and bought drinks then sat at our normal place but we decided to move as the "dancing girls" were simply irritating ! moved to library . and hell yeah we did oy HW . good students kan ?! boyf and fir helped me with maths . after completing maths which i don't understand at all , helped boyf 's with his malay HW . && had the greatest laugh ever lah kan just now . me and fir just can't stop laughing lah seyy ! i know we know lah kan {: haha . laugh like gile lah seyy . haha . i swear if you were there you'll be laughing your ass off too ! haha {: after that we heeded home !

went seperate ways with hanis and firzanah . like always me and boyf walked home ! && we're sick of it ! seriously ! and while walking talked alot . boyf gave me a lecture lah kan . useful tho ! thanks aye boyf ?! next time i won't take it to heart easily ! but seriously there's a limit lah kan . just don't go overboard uh . that's all . reached , hug-ed and off we went seperate ways !

reached home change and go out again to buy foolscape paper . and guess who i saw ?!?! beside atika's parents . haha . i saw AIDIL lah kan ! ! ! tak tahu tegur perr mat rep ?! did talked tho . haha {: then went home and he texted me ! badol biler meet tk nk bbl puas2 biler dah balik baru nak text fafa ! nehmind . and currently helping out boyf with his malay HW . i don't mind doing it all cause he helped me alot with my maths . so now fair and square lah kan ?! thanks boyf ! i owe you big aye , bie ?!

today cannot video call with fizzo cause kakak's beside me right now ! sorry aye fizzo ?! ehk ! just rmbrd suppose to meet boyf early tmrw to help him with his malay HW ! hehe {: baik kan fafa ?! haha {: naaaahhh , just something i could do in return ! but the thing is i'm not sure if i can wake up early tak . cause most prolly will be accompanying abg later ! hehe {: so if fafa lmbt boyf sorry ehk . texted boyf but no reply cause he's sim card have problem i think . so i'll have to call him . kay kay . i guess i'll blog till here cause i got nth much to blog . and ppl when you know nothing please stay out out from other ppl affair will you ? cause you're just adding problems to it . it'll be better if you shut up when you got nth better to say and say nth when you know nth aye ?! i'll really appriciate it ! Thank you {: i'll blog till here . take care all awesome readers !

BYE {♥♥}